DATE: Mar 13 2009, 12:42 am / MOOD: Frustrated
I have been really bad about getting on this site. I am sorry for anyone who has tried to contact me. Life has just been so crazy. Not crazy enough to keep the attacks at bay. Lately I have been getting heart palps once and a while. Sometimes there is nothing to it but then I feel like I am spirling out of control and dying. My limbs get heavy and I freak. I did see my doctor back in December. He listend to my artiers in my neck and didn't make a mention that it was serious.
I have been off of my anxiety medication for about a year now. Combination of moving to a new state (which I have to update my page) and my new job hours are not good for doctors. That and I am scared to death of doctors. My last one I got lucky and she was sort of nice. But I need a sweet WOMAN doctor with the best bedside manner ever. Maybe I will get lucky here in the south since most people are nice. But I need to do something soon. I am coming off an attack right now. But every time I come off of one, it can flare up just as easy. It is so hard to talk to anyone around here because they don't know how I feel.
This will hopefully mean that I will be more active on this site. I need people to try and keep me level and also know what I have been going through.
Oh, and thank you all for the comments. I loved them so much :-)
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