Sep 14 2008, 11:38 am / Sad
For those of you who don't know me, my sister, Suzan, passed away on July the 20th as a cause of a sezuire in her sleep. Suzan was a victum of epilepsy and developed it when she was 17 years old. She passed away 10 years later at 27. I can't even begin to put it into words the way I feel on most days.
"The days will always be brighter because she existed. The nights will always be darker because she's gone. And no matter what anybody says about grief or about time healing all wounds, the truth is there are certain sorrows that never fade away...until the heart stops beating & the last breath is taken."
For showing me that life is so much more than many people see it as, and believe it to be. For teaching me that it's not about the length of life, but rather as how you live it and carry on. That it's not about the kind of cards you've been dealt-- but about accepting them, learning from them, reaching out to others, and making the most of them. I cherish the seventeen years of life I've got to spend with you. I believe it, truly, to be a gift from God. It's going to be hard. It's going to be really hard. But I'm going to face it, and fight through it. I might not always be standing, but I will get back up. And I will try. I will try over and over and over and again. I will try as many times as it takes me. Because I know that that is what you would have wanted...for all of us. Thank you for everything, really. I could not ask for a better sister, or a better role model than you. You are the hope in my heart and the faith in my bones, and I will never let that go. I love you, and I'll see you soon.