Anxiety

Just posting since I haven't done so in a while.

I've started going to this vocational rehabilitation place my therapist recommended me to, for people with various disabilities or something that prevents them from getting a job normally. I don't really know what to expect, but the lady working with me is really nice...

Other than that, things have just been going along as usual. I sort of have the winter doldrums, but not quite so bad as past years. Seeing my therapist every two weeks, and starting feel comfortable talking with her.

There's been talk of me going back to school. I had said I wanted to start taking a class at the community college, if it was just one then I'd be able to handle it. Now the plan is to see the counselor at the university and arrange something. A good plan. I'm just afraid of screwing it up. When I get depressed I just sort of abandon and withdraw from everything. And if I start going to college seriously and then that happens...argh, I just don't want to screw it up. :6

But who knows when any of that will happen. I'm not all that unhappy with my life of just spending all day reading, playing video games, watching anime and such. I just feel bad because I know it's not supposed to be this way...not doing anything with my life.

Hahahum, writing this has depressed me. That's all for now.