Anxiety Self Help

DATE: May 22 2012, 3:38 pm / MOOD: Angry

Hello my fellow anxiety suffers, I'm to the point where idk how to explain what I'm feeling anymore. The best way to put it is... I'm not living I'm only existing. Within the last 8 months my life went from graduating h.s starting a new life to back to how my life was when I was 15. It started with getting anxiety attacks only when I smoked marijuana so I quit. Then I got a nasty one one night after working out... Then I lost my license til I'm 21 I'm currently 19:( since I lost my lisence it just has gotten worse. I was having anxiety attacks everyday sometimes twice a day. I've been to the hospital 3 times cause of my attacks. The past few months I've been feeling ALL the physical symptoms of anxiety... The headaches, dizziness, worrying constantly, not being able to get outta bed, the zombie like state, parinoia, no ambition to do a danm thing. This past month has been sh*t. We lost my moms bf to liver failure and another family memeber has been arrested and is looking at years and years in prison. I'm seeing my mother the strongest woman in the world fall apart. With all the sh*t my mom has had to deal with her whole adult life makes me not want to make my issues hers. I have a therapist but have only seen.her once cause my mom can't get time off and I can't.drive myself. Idk what to do anymore I went from being so carefree happy loving enjoying life to this scared little girl. I have my whole life ahead of me and I'm just wasting away in my own little f**ked up world. I keep telling myself if drug addicts alcoholics prisoners can rehabilitate why can't I? I realize I need help and I need it fast. I never realized how much your life can revlove around driving and.now.that I legally can't drive I realize how much you need it to do anything. And where I live there is NO reliable bus system. We were looking.into and I was lookin forward to moving but with this recent arrest my life is put pb hold again. I just want a fresh start but it seems .like every time I start to look forward to new start something gets in the way of it... Idk what to do anymore but I'm on the verge of giving.up more than I have. I'm done!!!!!!

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DATE: May 16 2012, 1:12 pm / MOOD: Angry

Ugh!!!!!!!_ I hate waking up with anxiety!!!!! I feel like a zombie and I can't get out of bed cause when I do I get scared something's gonna happen but idk why! I know I'm healthy minus my anxiety but I just feel real sh*tty when I wake up like this and it'll last all day cause it always does! I have stuff to do but I can't do it cause if this overwhelming feeling of something bad happening! Idk how else to explain it I'm just stuck right now! I feel so distant like this is real life its such a crazy feeling and I hate it! All the symptoms that come with anxiety are bulls$%t. It makes me so mad that I have to suffer from this ALL day instead of just having an attack and getting on with my day! I'm so frustrated and mad cause I've been doing so good lately and then today I wake up feeling like crap!!!!!!! Uuuuggggggghhhhhh!!!!!!! -___-

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DATE: May 06 2012, 8:53 pm / MOOD: Sad

I lost someone yesterday that had been sick for a few weeks he was put on hospice on Wednesday and passed away yesterday. This whole time I haven't been able to just cry, scream breakdown because of my anxiety. I'm scared to have an attack. Unrealistic fears overcome me and stop me from mourning. Has anybody else experienced anything like this whether it has to do with a death a break up or anything that shakes up your emotions. If so how did you get past it?

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DATE: Apr 26 2012, 10:09 pm / MOOD: Curious

So I haven't experienced an anxiety attack for a few days now (knock on wood it continues) but I have been taking my lorazepam .5 I've been taking it as directed by my doctor which is to take it as needed every 6 hours. I only take one either everyday or every other day. I've been taking it like this for about a month. Now I'm starting therapy on Wednesday so hopefully that can start helping. But my question is.... I understand.how addictive ativan is and am wondering how do you know if your addicted? I don't want to become or be addicted to anything but I can't help but take it cause I feel anxious on edge and all the symptoms of anxiety until I take it or am kept extremely busy which is hard to do cause I'm outta work and school due to my anxiety!! So if anyone has an answer to my question pleeeeeaaaasssee share!! Thank you<3

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DATE: Apr 18 2012, 5:14 pm / MOOD: Frustrated

Im slowly coming to the realization that everyday is a battle!!! I need some advice on natural remedies to help my anxiety and also some tips on how to go on with my life. How do you hold down a job with anxiety? How do you get up and out feeling sick just from your anxiety? How do you not let your anxiety stop you from doing what you need to do to better yourself? I'm stuck in a cycle where my anxiety controls everything and I'm tired of it!!! Are there any books out there that can help me relax? I know its mind over matter but matter is definitely winning right now : /

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DATE: Apr 16 2012, 12:22 pm / MOOD: Sad

I'm 19 feeling like I'm 90 on my death bed. My anxiety stops me from going out to go get a new job to enroll in school and my anxiety is of course accompanied with depression. When I have an anxiety attack I feel utter doom, that it will never end, that I AM going to die, I'm not able to catch my breath my head feels foggy, I feel detached from reality, I get extremely dizzy and once it all passes I feel stupid for thinking I was going to die especially cause I've been thru this 100 times! All day my head feels well not normal, foggy and distant, im tense all day on the verge of an anxiety attack all day! I was doing so good at controling my anxiety after going to the hospital, I was convinced there was something wrong with my heart which triggered a lot of my anxiety attacks, after being told my heart is healthy my anxiety became easier to control. Now with my head feeling the way it does all the time had become my new anxiety trigger. I have an unhealthy fear of death so anytime I feel sick whether its a headache or upset stomach my first thought is death! I used to be normal and happy now I'm just a sad anxious people. I lost the person I use to be and I want her back -

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