http://www.anxietytribe.comAnxietyTribe.com http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=21501 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=21501 I've been thinking recently, I need to get out more with other people. I only see one friend really, since I left my old mates years ago. I see him once or twice a week. We go out walking, cycling, and canoeing! He kind of understands my anxiety problems, and knows I try to avoid busy places. It gets him out into the countryside doing outdoor things, which he loves as much as me, so all good. I can get by usually in outdoor locations, mostly when the sun is shining.   I'd really like to try and meet other like-minded people, who understand or suffer from anxiety, and maybe go out for walks or bike rides. I'm not yet sure how to go about this, but maybe I'll find some people in the Northamptonshire (East Midlands, England) area on here.   This is just a step I feel I need to do. I can't avoid everyone forever haha! Wed, 17 Aug 2011 16:08:19 -0500 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=18728 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=18728 Nearly a New Year again! Last New Year I said i would give up drinking alcohol...and guess what i did it, with ease. I've went all year without a drop. I wasn't a heavy alcoholic, but i drank a little too much and when i did, i drank myself silly and wouldn't stop until totally out of it. It's definitely a good thing now i've stopped...just debating whether to have a drink over this xmas period or not...probably not. Pretty nervous about Christmas Day tomorrow. Trying to turn this nervousness into excitement, hopefully i'll have a good day. Merry Christmas! Fri, 24 Dec 2010 16:12:32 -0600 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=15359 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=15359 Just thinking out loud on the subject of friends.  I have 1 friend. I have lots of others, but does it count if you've not seen or been in contact with them for a few years? I guess not...  My friend is getting on with his life which is great, and he's expecting a baby soon with his girl friend which is really nice. I'm seeing him far less often now though, so I'm alone every day. I'm not moaning about it really I've got used to it and it's what I think I want, but it can't be good long term.  A number of years ago i had a large group of very good friends, but I left them when my anxiety and depression rapidly escalated. Obviously it's hard to mix with friends in places when you're constantly having anxiety attacks and feeling uncontrollably depressed...best just keep myself to myself and not bring anyone else down with me.  I'm feeling keen to get my own place, but I do wonder if this will just make my life even more lonely not having the parents and brother around to say the odd word to daily. I don't say alot to them. Just the odd short convo, and I can't remember the last time I've been able to sit down in the same room as them and relax or talk. I tend to eat, work, chill, watch tv, sleep all in my bedroom.  Not sure what the answer is to get my social life back. It's not like I'm just sitting around doing nothing with my life though. I work in the day here doing my jobs, and get out for walks or cycles in the evening, or do a DJ set for online friends, or work on a new track. I guess I've replaced my friends with hobbies; the ridiculous list of which you'll see in my profile!  So, not really moaning or feeling depressed about this issue, just wanted to share my thoughts and my situation.  Bye fornow! Fri, 26 Mar 2010 20:03:28 -0500 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=15323 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=15323 I've returned here today to find I hadn't been on for a long while. I wrote my last (and first) blog september 2008, and I gave it a read, and my profile too, and made me realise how unhappy i was back then. I've updated a couple things in my profile now, but needs updating some more probably. Looking back, I'm certainly happier than before. I do have more confidence and hope about the future, but still suffer badly from anxiety. Although it affects everything I do, I still manage to get out for walks & things frequently, and get by ok. Although, I do avoid busy public places, and haven't entered a shop for some time...not realy ideal. Last time here, I was unemployed and getting frequently moaned at my family members, but I've now been running my graphic design business for a couple years and some weeks go really well. It's been nice to be able to buy things for a change as I went a few years with no money. This, with family members being happy and supportive has made me happier I guess. I started exercising, cycling, walking, jogging, lifting weights recently and this is really improving my determination, happiness and confidence. I recommend that to anyone who doesn't exercise. I'm looking for a place to rent now, although not sure if my anxiety would let me do so. I'd probably rely on food shopping online until I could manage going out to a supermarket. I just really want my independance now. Would like a place by the coast and away from town centres, but maybe that's asking too much hehe. Mon, 22 Mar 2010 09:03:01 -0500 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=7722 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=7722 So today my mother has a day off work. As usual it's time to hear a lecture from her about how i need to get a job, or get some help. Although I've suffered from anxiety for almost 4 years I've never got any help, and I'm quite against it...or afraid of it. I don't feel like anyone can help me, but i feel maybe I can work it out eventually on my own.  I'm now 23 years old and I do realise I can't rely on my parents for much longer, so something has got to change quickly. I think the dreadful jobs in warehouses played a big part towards my depression and anxiety, so I really cannot possibly work in one again. I left the last one as i couldn't handle the depression, anxiety and the boredom, so there's no way I'm going back. I have tried many ideas of working from home, but none have yet turned out too good. I am willing to keep trying to become a freelance graphic designer as I love it so much! On another note, It's nice to have found this place and I look forward to chatting to some of you!P.S. This is the first blog entry i have ever written anywhere, so i hope i've used it correctly hehe. Wed, 3 Sep 2008 06:09:10 -0500