http://www.anxietytribe.comAnxietyTribe.com http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=28801 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=28801 I have no external fears, I am fully aware that my anxiety comes from within, the problem is that I have developed a fear of my own mind, riddled with depression and anxiety, I have become terrified of the fact that I even exist for I know the suffering I have to endure every day, the longer it goes on, the less ability I feel I have to beat it and the worse it gets. It has been going on for so long and with such intensity that I don't know what normal feels like anymore. I can enter into a state where I am afraid of existence and everyone around me within seconds, it's like being thrown into a different world. It is the most unpleasant feeling ever, like pure terror. At these times I just feel like throwing myself in front of the nearest car. Hardly a survival response. I haven't found a single example where someone feels this bad. Anyone? Wed, 23 May 2012 04:05:03 -0500 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=25251 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=25251 I have suffered with acute anxiety for nearly a year now and just recently it hit rock bottom. It has seeped into every aspect of my life every second of my life, finally I decided to give up the fight, I didn't care if I died even, my life was already my own personal hell. So I've accepted the anxiety 100% without fear and finally I can feel it turning around. I have included a link to further explain and hope that it will help others, I can only say from experience that to fight anxiety is to prolong it and make it much much worse. www.overcomeanxiety.net/how-to-cure-anxiety Best of Luck Fri, 3 Feb 2012 18:02:40 -0600 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=25093 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=25093 I am writing this blog in the hope that it might help someone else who is suffering. Three days ago my anxiety had come to a head. Negativity had leaked into every inch of my life and my flight or fight system was seeing everything as a potential threat. My mind was starting to believe the lies too and I thought my only way to escape the misery would be to take my own life. I was having panic attack after panic attack, one caused by the fear of the next, it was horrific. Then I read something that gave me hope. I was told that my flight or fight response was triggered by the apprehension of the next attack, which I knew but where as previously I would breathe through the attack to stop it, this time I realised I had to accept the attack fully, with 100% no fear. And so I did, with no fear I let the attacks come, and to my suprise they were getting shorter and shorter in duration. Without my fear fuelling them they couldn't get a grip. They stopped altogether. The idea is that I teach my system that panic attacks are NOT a threat, this way it won't react to any symptoms of them. On top of this I have started to implement positive thinking into my life 24 hours a day, to unravel the damage caused by the anxiety. 3 days and I'm healing quickly. Mon, 30 Jan 2012 10:01:11 -0600 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=24929 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=24929 I have always had a brain that runs away with it's thoughts, but just recently they seem to speed up to a point where I can't even grasp what is going on in there, then it just turns into like a fuzzing noise and feeling and I lose complete control over my brain. What is this?? Wed, 18 Jan 2012 12:01:38 -0600 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=24635 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=24635 Last night my fear/anxiety was so awful, I truly think it peaked, because I was actually glad of the resulting panic attack which knocked me out of my thoughts. I was driving myself crazy with thoughts of 'why are we all here' 'what's going to happen to me when I die' and many thoughts along the lines of questions that cannot be answered. My anxiety has locked onto many different fears along the course of it's time with me, from social anxiety to fear of the world itself, each time I have worked through one fear, it has found itself another. Last night as I said, it peaked, I was in my own hell, terrified, alone, and certain suicide was my only way out. I felt I was being crushed from the inside out. However now when I get anxiety I ride it out, I take no pills and resort to no other way of 'getting rid' of it. I know the only way to beat this is to face it. After my episode last night I was left feeling kind of cleansed, there was no where else for my fear to go, it had played out every scenario and I had faced them all. I felt kind of good and a little afraid all at the same time. Acceptance seems to be the key, don't fight it, don't think of ways to fix it, welcome it and desensitize yourself to it. I would love to hear from someone who has had the same kind of fears, about life, origin of life, where we are all going, what we are doing here etc so that I don't feel so alone. My fears started off focused on the more 'normal' - social anxiety, agoraphobia etc but as I worked through each one it progressed to a new level, until finally I am here, terrified by the wonders of the universe itself. Really hope to hear from someone like meBest wishes to you all x Thu, 12 Jan 2012 03:01:00 -0600 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=21871 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=21871 I am truly suicidal again, I'm so sad because I have a beautiful happy 5 month old daughter and a family I love dearly and who support me through everything with great understanding. I have my own house and good physical health. Despite everything being right in my life I am constantly battling with anxiety. When I was pregnant I suffered with chronic anxiety and suidal ideation and was admitted to a psychiatric ward. Since then my life has been about trying to push the anxiety down and acting like everything is fine so I can be the best mother and person to everybody who needs me. But in the last week the anxiety and depression has hit me like a brick and I have had little control over it. The lump in my throat has been persistent, I had my first physical panic attack for a long time. I'm afraid of everything. I freak out about death and a possible afterlife, eternal suffering (suffering as I have hear my whole life on earth) I become disconnected and afraid of people which makes me very lonely and paranoid. I have become so anxious before that I started to get delusional, thinking my baby was possessed and my bf was gonna stab me... I just cannot continue to go through this... I simply don't have the strength. I can't take benzo's because I'm afraid to take them which only makes the anxiety worse, rendering them useless. My anxiety seems to severe that I think I'm the only one that has it this bad?? I try SO hard to help myself and to make myself well but it's persistent and requires a lot of my strength mentally, I'm exhausted with trying to control the anxiety and depression and look after a new baby. God someone please help me I don't think I can go on :-( Mon, 26 Sep 2011 14:09:50 -0500 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=21048 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=21048 Can anxiety and paranoia co-exist with Bi-Polar disorder? Sun, 3 Jul 2011 12:07:55 -0500 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=21047 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=21047 What is this? I went to visit my dadthree nights agoin hospital, it's about 30 miles away. I knew the drive was going to be tough as I was already feeling disconnected and afraid of being with people (this includes my family) when I got to the hospital, I was with my dad, sister, partner of 6 years and my baby, all of whom I love dearly, but all of whom I was feeling completely disconnected from. Anyway, this anxiety around my family caused me to start crying in the car on the way back, my anxiety escalated into a feeling of the world not being real, of the people I was with not really being there, I felt completely alone and confused, a feeling like (metaphorically) floating around aimlessly in the universe with absolutely no idea what I'm doing there and feeling absolutely terrified and alone. Eventually I collapsed, by which time I was really crying, exhausted, my mind went quiet and I felt like I was about to tap into something in my head and everything would click into place and I would be ok, but then I heard my baby screaming and I was snapped out of it (to my annoyance) I just don't know what to do to make it all better, and to feel like I am real and connected to people. The next day I had an episode that was much shorter but a lot worse, feeling terrified of everything and everyone, eventually I took a diazepam and went to sleep. I had feelings of wanting to drink and do something reckless. Saturday I kept myself busy and distracted, feeling low but trying not to think about it,my care co-ordinatoradvised me to ride any negative feelings but Icouldn't as I wastoo scared. Today from around 10 o’clock in the morning till 3 o’clock in the afternoon I felt extremely low, tired and was thinking about suicide again. Around 3 o’clock I suddenly seemed to snap out of it and at the moment I am feeling fine. What the fuck is going on? Sun, 3 Jul 2011 12:07:31 -0500 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=21028 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=21028 I'll try to keep this short, I have suffered with acute anxiety for about 4 months now and have tried everything to overcome it, it is better but sometimes I have these huge anxiety attacks which are absolutely terrifying. These aren't panic attacks, they go way beyond panic attacks. So the story of my latest one: I went to visit my dad last night in hospital, it's about 30 miles away. I knew the drive was going to be tough as I was already feeling disconnected and afraid of being with people (this includes my family) when I got to the hospital, I was with my dad, sister, partner of 6 years and my baby, all of whom I love dearly, but all of whom I was feeling completely disconnected from. Anyway, this anxiety around my family caused me to start crying in the car on the way back, my anxiety escalated into a feeling of the world not being real, of the people I was with not really being there, I felt completely alone and confused, a feeling like (metaphorically) floating around aimlessly in the universe with absolutely no idea what I'm doing there and feeling absolutely terrified and alone. Eventually I collapsed, by which time I was really crying, exhausted, my mind went quiet and I felt like I was about to tap into something in my head and everything would click into place and I would be ok, but then I heard my baby screaming and I was snapped out of it (to my annoyance) I just don't know what to do to make it all better, and to feel like I am real and connected to people. Fri, 1 Jul 2011 15:07:54 -0500 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=19833 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=19833 Forgive me for writing yet another blog about the same thing but I really am desperately looking for someone in the same situation as me. I was fine in my pregnancy up until 30 weeks, now I am suffering crippling anxiety, depression and panic attacks. I am also in the process of moving house and I'm beginning to regret the move and having the baby. I love my boyfriend dearly but at the moment his presence makes me nervous and I just don't want him around. I have been so bad I have had thoughts of self harm and suicide. I've never felt so bad. I really want to meet someone going through the same thing so that we can help one another. I have just started taking Sertraline (Zoloft) which the doctor and midwifeare hoping will help. I have taken 5 tablets so far, two 25mg, three 50mg, It better be a fucking wonder drug with the shit I'm going through right now. Wed, 9 Mar 2011 09:03:41 -0600 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=19802 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=19802 So the anxiety and panic attacks got real bad today, instead of getting flustered and trying to fight them, I laid on the sofa with a cold flannel on my head and told it to do it's worst. I was bad for about an hour butlet the symptoms overtake me and eventually they stopped. I figured it I didn't move, my brain might realise there's no threat. I feel ok now, if it happens again I'll just keep doing it, I don't have any fight left in me anyway. Tue, 8 Mar 2011 12:03:15 -0600 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=19785 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=19785 For the past three days: I'm almost always highly anxious, getting panic attacks, waking with shakes followed by attacks, I'm convinced I'm losing it, I'm actually starting to feel sick and anxious around my own boyfriend, who I'd give my life for and I think of self harm and suicide. I'm 31 weeks pregnant and scared to my wits end. Sun, 6 Mar 2011 20:03:47 -0600 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=19763 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=19763 First off - sorry for posting again, I'm just really scared and don't know what the fuck to do. The situation is, I'm 30 weeks pregnant and all of a sudden the most dreadful anxiety I have ever experienced has flooded in on me with full force, it's not surprising really as I am also moving house and I have a great deal to cope with and I'm not the strongest of people anyway, having suffered with mental health problems most of my life, but I don't know what to do to help myself. I usually listen to self help tapes but the anxiety is so bad I can't focus on them, I have just begun to take Sertraline 25mg for a week up to 50mg thereafter so I'm hoping they will help. I can't put anything into perspective, I can't separate my illogical thoughts from the normal anxiety that everyone has, I literally feel like I am crumbling under the weight of it all, sometimes I wishwasn't here so I wouldn't have to feel so scared. Is there anyone else who is pregnant on here and suffering with bad anxiety that I can be friends with so we can help each other through?? Sat, 5 Mar 2011 10:03:46 -0600 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=19760 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=19760 I'd like some ideas on the kinds of things you use to help yourself get better. For instance, self help tapes, books, diet, types of exercises or activities that you find particularly useful, distraction techniques. I have lots of my own but I'd still like some more. Here are some of mine: Belleruth Naparstek mp3's: Panic Attacks, Pregnancy and Childbirth, General Wellness. She has loads, very calming, clear tapes. Self help books: Linden, Curing Asthma Naturally - the reason I read this is because apparently correct breathing is key, and incorrect breathing can cause all types of problems including anxiety and panic attacks. Of course I've read many others but these are the ones I'm reading at the moment. However could defo do with more exercise and a diet plan that helps anxiety. If anyone has any suggestions I'd love to hear from you. I simply don't have the time to let this s**t get the better of me. Sat, 5 Mar 2011 02:03:50 -0600 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=19753 http://www.anxietytribe.com/rss.php?header=blogs&id=19753 I used to come on here before but compared to the anxiety I've been suffering with of late, I really didn't have a problem before. I have never experienced anything like this in my life, anxiety, panic attacks, paranoia. All on top of a 30 week pregnancy and a house move. I don't know what to do, I'm exhausted with fear. Fri, 4 Mar 2011 08:03:00 -0600