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VIEWING 11 - 18 OUT OF 18 TOTAL
What my assistant boss did to me
DATE: Mar 21 2008, 11:47 am / MOOD: Disappointed
Paul the assistant boss, One thursday we were working together and at the end of the shift he dedcided to lock me in the bar and i couldnt get out for about 5 minutes he eventually let me out and i had a painc attack and was so scared to go into work or to be near him for weeks. He also threatened me by saying he was going to lock me in the safe and that if i didnt do what he said that he would give me the sack and he kept on saying about my height becuase im really short and he would make jokes about that. One saturday night i was ment to working but i just had to walk out becuase he really did scare me. I told some of the people that i work with and they said to talk with my boss about him, so i did saying that i have panic attacks and depression and what he done so he told paul about me having them. He came up to me and said that he had panic attacks but ive never believed him and he just apoligised about the things he done. I have night mares about being locked away and i think its linked to that. Me and him are quite close now but the damage is done. I know i shouldnt of said it but he was annoying me so i said to him f@ck off and he chucked me out for that i admit that he deserved to. View Entry | Leave A Comment
Ive been and done it
DATE: Mar 07 2008, 10:34 am / MOOD: Don't know
I worry to much. I think everything went alright with the mental health team, hey well at least they didnt lock me up. I cant really remember what happened i know i told her abit about me and my life and shes going to discuss it with my doctor and phone me next week to see my next step. They dont know everything yet. The thing is i dont know what to do with myself i feel like someones ripped out my heart and i cant feel a thing or even cry. Im going to try and let them come to my house as i would feel more comfortable with that. Thanks for everyones support. View Entry | Leave A Comment
tomorrows the day that could change my life forever
DATE: Mar 06 2008, 11:18 am / MOOD: Anxious
So tomorrows the day that could change my life for the better i hope. Im absolutely petrified about going to see them, but then again i think that i worry about everything so its nothing unusual. Oh well ill see how i get on, it may go fine for all i know. Oh well at least ive got work tonight so i can keep my mind off it
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my last counselling session
DATE: Mar 05 2008, 3:43 pm / MOOD: Disappointed
My counsellor says that she cant help me anymore, ive only being going to her for 3 sessions but she says that i need more help then she can give me. I think the truth is she doesnt want to help me and so shes saying that on friday the mental people that im going to see should help me. Ok so i told her that i cut myself i thought i was doing the right thing by telling her the truth obviously not. View Entry | Leave A Comment
my life is so boring
DATE: Mar 04 2008, 5:57 pm / MOOD: Other
My life is so boring all i do is work and do everyones shifts at work and sleep. I dont have a social life to be honest ive never gone out clubbing or done anything its not that i havent wanted to its because i dont have any frinds apart from my workmates, theyve all got friends outside of work and so i dont get invited out anywhere. If i do get invited out i feel like i cant go anyway just incase i let them down by having a panic attack and so this would stop me from doing anything and so i would want to go home. View Entry | Leave A Comment
I hate dogs
DATE: Mar 04 2008, 10:37 am / MOOD: Fearful
Ive just come back from a walk and i met up with this dog it came running towards me so i just ran away from it, the owner then called its name and so it went back to its owner. Meanwhile i was having a panic attack im alright now. I dont know why im scared of dogs maybe something happened when i was really young, but to me i can always remember being afraid of them. I cant do anything without having a panic attack. View Entry | Leave A Comment
my phobias
DATE: Mar 02 2008, 4:30 pm / MOOD: Don't know
Heres a list of all my fears that i can think of but there maybe a couple more. Some of these are really weird. View Entry | Leave A Comment
my life
DATE: Mar 02 2008, 4:21 pm / MOOD: Anxious
Ive got depression and have panic attacks. I dont have many friends all ive got is the people that i work with but i annoy them. I annoy them because i talk to them to much but they dont understand what its like not having anyone else apart from them. If i do try and talk to them i mess it up by saying something stupid thats why i find it hard to talk. I dont know if i want to get better, i mean that would be great as i wouldnt feel so sad all the time but on the other hand im scared that noone will like the real me. Most nights i will be alone for hours with no contact with anyone so then i get really paranoid thinking why isnt anyone talking to me maybe im invisible. When it gets to bed time i have to cry myself to sleep. Ive recently started cutting myself i dont know why it maybe because someone close to me is leaving or it could be just to get attention. Tomorrow i have to get assessed as the doctor has given up on me, as i dont want to take anti depressents as im scared that they will make my panic attacks worse, i become even more tired then i am already and i may get addicted to them. I told my mum and she thinks that its a bad idea taking them and most of the people at work seem to think that they are a good idea so im really confused about taking them. View Entry | Leave A Comment
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