Loopylou             
 


Jun 30 2009, 3:50 am / Anxious

OK SO IVE HIT ROCK BOTTOM I CANT EAT A THING WITHOUT THROWING IT BACK UP I DONT NO WHAT TO DO THE THOUGHT OF STARVING MYSELF TO DEATH IS REALLY STARTING TO SCARE ME. THE THING IS IM SO HUNGRY I JUST REALLY DONT FEEL RIGHT IN MY SELF I GOT PEOPLE THINKING IM DOING THIS ON PURPOSE TO LOOSE WEIGHT I WOULD NEVER DO THIS I FEEL SO DEPPRESSED AND ILL AND IM FEELING SO SCARED.....



My Comments

From: Dee123
Jun 30 2009, 9:11 pm

Glad that you got to the doctor...


Hope you sleep well and wake feeling better



Dee123


Jun 30 2009, 6:54 pm

the soup is a good idea to start and crackers..perhaps some seven up or ginger ale while your body recovers.   First thing's first.. you have anxiety you know you would never do something like this to yourself.. as far as what others may think  about you.  I say.. F' EM!


 


who needs the extra stress worrying about what people may think about you, let it go, stop doing mnind reading.. perhaps they are not thinking that way.  I was like this once and I finally broke down to the people in my life and told them I have the illness not them.  Stop telling me how I should be. or how i should feel, or if I may be doing something on purpose or not.  I know me better than you, trust me to let you know if something's wrong, I will always be honest about it.


 


hope you get better soon!



toastee


From: tmae8
Jun 30 2009, 2:13 pm

i had this problem too. i was throwing up everything i ate.. mine was due to extreme stress. so that could be whats going on. after 4 days of this i knew i had to get help i was down to 98 lbs. so i got put on medication to help me. i still get sick sometimes when i'm very stressed out. it doesnt happen nearly as often and i've been able to gain some weight. but i definately hope you are well soon.

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tmae8


Jun 30 2009, 12:40 pm

i been to the doctors it was my contraseptive patch mixing with all the rest of my meds so ive now been took off everything and just been gave omerprazole n buccastem and i take my duazypan at night times so far today i have ate a couple of mouthfuls of ice cream n a couple of mouthfuls of soup and water. i just got to take it slowly because i havent eaten in such a long time my stomach has shrunk n cant take all the food. ill tell ya summin tho i was so scared i didnt no wat to do i didnt have the energy and still dont have the eneregy yet to do ne thing and im meant to be moving next week going to find it hard but it has to be done .



loopylou


Jun 30 2009, 10:56 am

Definietly try drinking Ensure.  I did this every morning for months when I couldn't keep anything down.  It did help.  I feel for you...I hope you hang in there.



jeneva5


Jun 30 2009, 10:26 am

is it your anxiety making you sick to your stomach, or do you possibly have the flu or  virus?



Patchouli


From: Dee123
Jun 30 2009, 8:15 am

First off.....being really scared doesn't help....so maybe you can try some breathing ....


Reminding yourself that eating makes you throw up will also just perpetuate the whole thing....


Why not try to eat very small amounts throughout the day.  Example......make a small plastic bag of some cereal and nuts and keep them with you....make another bag of maybe carrots........keep them with you......dried fruit......as you are going thru your day....eat a hand full, maybe eat 1 carrot.......not a whole mean mind you....little amounts....choose what you like........


Stay away from the sugar....that is going to raise you up and drop you like a lead balloon.....the food you choose in your bags will probably have sugar in them...that's enough.  You need to just stablize your system right now.......you are very raw......sugar will make you more anxious


If you can...maybe later eat a bit of oatmeal...just a tiny bit....your body will begin to tell you when you need to eat more.  If all you can eat is a teaspoon and keep it down...that's fine...just keep telling yourself that you are healing yourself with this nourishment.  Once you are able to eat little bits....you thoughts and feelings will change.....right now you are deprived, and thinking can become unclear.


Protien and complex carbo's is the goal....but start slowly...right now your body is only ready for small amounts......


Try to drink water....little sips...nothing big.....remember.....your tummy is very upset right now....


I hope this will help....It has always worked for me.....



Dee123


Jun 30 2009, 7:08 am

im trying to eat bread and i need to get something sweet inside me cuz my sugar level is normall but on the low side. i just cant stop thinking abot the sicky feelings i try i really do but nothing happens i have been refered to councelling but now im on a waiting list. i no i need to eat i really do try but sometimes i just cant i have been trying nurrishment drinkks my sister advised me to take it but they make me feel sick i throw everything back up im reakky scared and i dont think ne1 understands how scared i really am.... 



loopylou


From: Dee123
Jun 30 2009, 6:42 am

Go to the market and get some kind of supplemental drink like Ensure.....


You really need to keep something in your body.


If all else fails, it might be time to consult a doctor....


You need to do what ever it takes to start to build yourself back up.


You have babies to care for.


Screw what other people think....right now that is not important....they don't understand......for today, take care of you.


The depression is partly from lack of food.....it's like a car with no gas....it can't run.


Believe me when I tell you that I know all about this.......I was 80 lbs at one point.......Don't allow this to become the focus and a habit...


You need help....


Do you have a therapist?


If so call them.....


Call the doctor....see if they can give you something.


You are very young , with alot on your plate....you deserve to find a bit of peace.


Feel better


Dee



Dee123