Anxiety Self Help

DATE: Jul 11 2009, 4:47 pm / MOOD: Anxious

so ive moved now found it hard cuz my anxiety is still playing up really bad i can eat little things now but not alot.

todays been the worse i just started to relax when i had a phone call from my sister saying her lil boy wernt very well and had all the symptoms of swine flu she was taking him to hospital. so i started to panick.

a hour later my mum rang in tears saying she had swine flu and was being treated for it still a massive worry not only am i worrying for her but i only see her yesterday and stayed with her last weekend they say she has had swine flu for 3 weeks. now im worried i will get it and my kids will get it.

im going councelling now every tuesday but this wont help me this will be my first aid, i have been told i need cbt which is different to me n not sure what it is or how it will help. i also stopped in town today and let the local church pray for me, anything will do i also read that i can go there and talk to people. im not religios but i mite try this.

i have a tickerly cough and i hope its not start to swine flu as i have been around my mum im so worried for her and me and my kids what to do i dont no...

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DATE: Jun 30 2009, 3:50 am / MOOD: Anxious

OK SO IVE HIT ROCK BOTTOM I CANT EAT A THING WITHOUT THROWING IT BACK UP I DONT NO WHAT TO DO THE THOUGHT OF STARVING MYSELF TO DEATH IS REALLY STARTING TO SCARE ME. THE THING IS IM SO HUNGRY I JUST REALLY DONT FEEL RIGHT IN MY SELF I GOT PEOPLE THINKING IM DOING THIS ON PURPOSE TO LOOSE WEIGHT I WOULD NEVER DO THIS I FEEL SO DEPPRESSED AND ILL AND IM FEELING SO SCARED.....

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DATE: Jun 27 2009, 12:45 pm / MOOD: Anxious

so i woke up this morning feeling a lil sick but managed to not be sick. i took half of a diazypan which made me feel high n a bit relaxed been in the garden with my mum n the kids. shaun went home for a bit n i felt ok which is a first cuz i depend on him alot. i even managed to eat half a sandwhich a yogart n a glass of milk n kept it down. its now 6.45pm n shaun has gone out to get a pool cuz its my daughters bday party tomoz dont no how im guna get thro it but il try. guna take another half of tablet tonight wen i need it n just hopin tomorrow goes well wish me luck.

got to get harry weighed monday and talk to a health v to see if i have postnatal deppression plus i got to see the doctor and hope they will refer me to councelin cuz i really need it...

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DATE: Jun 26 2009, 4:07 am / MOOD: Anxious

ok so i wake up this morning feeling sick as ever my breathing is playing up and my heart is beating really fast. i no im goin to be sick but i havent eaten or drank everything so i no if i throw up its going to hurt my belly and yes i was right it did hurt i didnt bring anything up apart from flem. now im shaking and feel sick as ever i hate feeling like this i cant remember the last time i woke up in the morning feeling fine. i no my partner has to go out later which means its just me n the kids here i really want my mum to come down cuz i no i wont be able to cope. feeling very sick again and probly going to throw up again i try not to think of it and try to relax but i cant everyone is talking bout deaths n i just cant handle it. my belly is hurting and im shaking more i no im goin into panic but i cant control it. i try think bout good times with my kids family and friends but nothing works why the hell have i got to feel this way i hate it so much i just want it to pass. i think i can controll my breathing but its the sickness i cant controll and the shaking it makes me feel so ill. hoping it will calm down soon so i can try to relax i was ok last night think it was cuz i was so tired that wen i did go to bed i went to sleep straight away. im drinking water so when i trow up again it wont hurt asmuch i just dont no what to do.......

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DATE: Jun 25 2009, 1:09 pm / MOOD: Anxious

ok so i noticed somthing new today. my baby boy had his 2month injections i didnt take him my partner did as i fear to much. hes fine when he comes home my partner says he cryed his lil eyes out bless him. any way i go to my sisters and my baby boy starts crying i cant settle him hes crying so lound my heart starts to pound and my breathing messes up i no its a panic attack my mum and sis assure me hes ok so i pass him to my mum who holds him tight and rocks him i walk out in tears i feel i cant handle him everytime he crys i feel panic  kick in but this is the first time i cry aswell i think i mite have postnatal deppression as well as anxiety and agrophobia great but when i cry my heart dont pound as hard in a weird way i feel i am letting it all out i just want to scream at the top of my voice ive had enough feeling like this i think am i goin to feel like this forever..................

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DATE: Jun 24 2009, 11:24 am / MOOD: Anxious

well what can i say im a young mother of two. i have had anxiety/agrophboia for nearlly 3 years. i started councelling last year and finished in january by this point i was 6 months pregnant with my son. at first my anxiety was bad my counceller told me it was probly post natal deppression that i was never treated for thats why it turned out as anxiety. i couldnt go out without throwng up and was very self conceous.  as i said i started councelling last year i think i had around 8 sessions and it really did work untill i had my son i now get anxiety worse than before even just sitting at home on the sofa i get all panicky and find it hard to breathe i hardly go anywhere and if i do my breathing and the feel of my heart beating so fast makes me feel sick sweaty like i cant breathe i no longer have alot of controll over it its because they are different symptoms than what i had last time. its really herd to look after my kids and feel like this i no i need more help and hopefully found a counceller (at a cost) that will help me get better again..

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