DATE: Mar 25 2012, 8:11 am / MOOD: Fearful
This is my first post and I'm in such a bad place right now. I need so much help. I have been seeing both a psychiatirst and a therapist with her PhD that specializes in phobia and mood disorders. I have been diagnosed with Moderate OCD, generalized anixiety disorder, depression, and phobias that keep on adding to themselves almost every week. My newest phobia hit Friday night. I now fear that I might be pregnant. I was pregnant with my beautiful amazing son 6 years ago and it was such a traumatic experience! Thank the Lord that he turned out amazing and is healthy and happy. But I am so worried about my poor husband having to take care of me like he takes care of our son. I put so much pressure on the 2 of them and I don't feel like they deserve to have me as a wife and mother since I have all of these problems. I am on Celexa and take Buspar for break through anxiety, but when the anxiety turns into chronic anxiety attacks, I take ativan. I'm already up to 1.5 mg of ativan this morning. I feel so defeated. I am a christian and hope that there are fellow christians out there reading this that might allow the Lord to speak through them to help me. I will be more than happy to return the favor.How does your family handle you when you are going through an episode? Do you ever feel guilty?
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