Anxiety Self Help

I have always had a brain that runs away with it's thoughts, but just recently they seem to speed up to a point where I can't even grasp what is going on in there, then it just turns into like a fuzzing noise and feeling and I lose complete control over my brain. What is this??

Last night my fear/anxiety was so awful, I truly think it peaked, because I was actually glad of the resulting panic attack which knocked me out of my thoughts. I was driving myself crazy with thoughts of 'why are we all here' 'what's going to happen to me when I die' and many thoughts along the lines of questions that cannot be answered. My anxiety has locked onto many different fears along the course of it's time with me, from social anxiety to fear of the world itself, each time I have worked through one fear, it has found itself another. Last night as I said, it peaked, I was in my own hell, terrified, alone, and certain suicide was my only way out. I felt I was being crushed from the inside out. However now when I get anxiety I ride it out, I take no pills and resort to no other way of 'getting rid' of it. I know the only way to beat this is to face it. After my episode last night I was left feeling kind of cleansed, there was no where else for my fear to go, it had played out every scenario and I had faced them all. I felt kind of good and a little afraid all at the same time. Acceptance seems to be the key, don't fight it, don't think of ways to fix it, welcome it and desensitize yourself to it. I would love to hear from someone who has had the same kind of fears, about life, origin of life, where we are all going, what we are doing here etc so that I don't feel so alone. My fears started off focused on the more 'normal' - social anxiety, agoraphobia etc but as I worked through each one it progressed to a new level, until finally I am here, terrified by the wonders of the universe itself. Really hope to hear from someone like meBest wishes to you all x

I am truly suicidal again, I'm so sad because I have a beautiful happy 5 month old daughter and a family I love dearly and who support me through everything with great understanding. I have my own house and good physical health.

Despite everything being right in my life I am constantly battling with anxiety. When I was pregnant I suffered with chronic anxiety and suidal ideation and was admitted to a psychiatric ward. Since then my life has been about trying to push the anxiety down and acting like everything is fine so I can be the best mother and person to everybody who needs me.

But in the last week the anxiety and depression has hit me like a brick and I have had little control over it. The lump in my throat has been persistent, I had my first physical panic attack for a long time. I'm afraid of everything. I freak out about death and a possible afterlife, eternal suffering (suffering as I have hear my whole life on earth) I become disconnected and afraid of people which makes me very lonely and paranoid. I have become so anxious before that I started to get delusional, thinking my baby was possessed and my bf was gonna stab me...

I just cannot continue to go through this... I simply don't have the strength. I can't take benzo's because I'm afraid to take them which only makes the anxiety worse, rendering them useless.

My anxiety seems to severe that I think I'm the only one that has it this bad?? I try SO hard to help myself and to make myself well but it's persistent and requires a lot of my strength mentally, I'm exhausted with trying to control the anxiety and depression and look after a new baby.

God someone please help me I don't think I can go on :-(

Can anxiety and paranoia co-exist with Bi-Polar disorder?

Forgive me for writing yet another blog about the same thing but I really am desperately looking for someone in the same situation as me.

I was fine in my pregnancy up until 30 weeks, now I am suffering crippling anxiety, depression and panic attacks. I am also in the process of moving house and I'm beginning to regret the move and having the baby. I love my boyfriend dearly but at the moment his presence makes me nervous and I just don't want him around. I have been so bad I have had thoughts of self harm and suicide. I've never felt so bad. I really want to meet someone going through the same thing so that we can help one another.

I have just started taking Sertraline (Zoloft) which the doctor and midwifeare hoping will help. I have taken 5 tablets so far, two 25mg, three 50mg, It better be a f@cking wonder drug with the sh*t I'm going through right now.