Anxiety Self Help

We made it!We get to see a new year. It is truely a blessing and I hope you all feel the same. Times can be tough but when fog clears, we are still standing doing our best with what we have.

Thank you for being my friends!

~Dominic

I’m going to see Santa today and will have to endure his long line. However, I’ll make good time of the stores and the hundreds of people in my way ;o) I’ve been sitting on my behind all day working on school so I guess I need to get out and do something good for my legs. My little girl is getting dolled-up so I better wear something nice.

Isn’t it mind boggling to know that we (us on this site) are able to overanalyze things beyond a typical person? I mean think about it, have you ever found yourself thinking both rational and irrationally?

These past few weeks have been reminders that I’m not a typical person even though I try to fit it. I’ve heard many people tell me that I think of these off-the-wall answers or topics to things that makes people either laugh of return a puzzled look. I know what I do and say is because I think out-loud but maybe I am different because of anxieties. I do, however, give people the benefit of the doubt because I have compassion when others don’t. At this point I find myself thinking aloud but within these typed words so do forgive me if it doesn’t make sense ;o)

After reading a post of a friend on here I thought about how unlucky we are to have anxieties. I also think of how lucky we are to be super-compassionate towards others needs. It’s truly amazing how each of us are strangers and how we would do our best to help each other out by words of encouragement, sympathy, or just a “hello” to let one another know we are thinking about them. I don’t find that to be anywhere else except on sites that encompasses individuals with life struggles such as our own.

Have you ever wondered how total strangers speak words of encouragement, share a tear, or pass a smile to one another when they are fighters or survivors of things such as cancers and body debilitating deceases? I know I have. I feel we are all of the same spirit when it comes to having something in common with one another. Just today, I was in the backseat of my friend’s car when the passenger was somewhat upset that a driver of a SUV was in the middle of our lane. At first and last thought, I figured she was confused or a bit anxious about finding a parking space but the passenger thought otherwise. I didn’t really care and felt the need to be compassionate but the person in front of me went off to a different direction. People like the one within my friend’s car can rub others, like us, the wrong way and provoke anxieties.

I’ve thought about anxieties as being a body reflex such as crying. For example, when people suffer in our world, or when we watch a sad movie, we tend to cry as a natural stimulant of feeling sad. I believe that my own anxiety feeling is due in part to others around me being in moods of other than “happy” so it gets me roused-up. I hope that that makes sense!

Well enough of my rambling. Thanks for reading and sharing in my thoughts. Hope everyone out there like me is doing okay.

I took a trip this past Friday from my home, Irvine, to Palm Springs and was it hot! Aside from staying at a nice resort, bearing the heat, and not letting my anxieties get the best of me, I discovered that I am a very fortunate person to have traveled and seen the landscape. For a time it really sucked to be stuck in one place but I’m glad I made it out of my city. I hope those of you have or had fun this weekend and took your own little trips, even if they were small. Small steps lead to bigger ones!

Well I'm off to the dentist in 40 minutes. I was fine this morning taking my daughter but have since then watched a show that had ended its series and that got me all sad and now I'm nervous to sit in the dental chair. I need to stop being a baby and jones-up to the task in hand. I used to not care about the dentist but now do care.

The last time I went to the dentist was back in late 09' and so hopefully I don't have much wrong with me, if any at all. I have a friend/girlfriend taking me so I feel a bit better but it's all up to me to take things into perspective and be relaxed. I've had too much issues with minor dental work but then again, I'm still here kicking ;o) Do any of you have issues with the dentist? Funny thing is, I cut out a piece of metal in my hand last night that would have grossed out most people but I felt it was better that I do it instead of going to the doc's office and having her do it. Either way, it's out and I feel better about it because it was stuck in my hand since 2000. I guess it was one of those things the military thought didn't need to be removed but I did. I hope my body feels better because that was a piece of metal stuck in my hand for years that was corroded and who knows what else was in it. It was the size of a small BB or maybe about half that size on top of my left hand by the index finger tendon near the knuckle. Well it's out so maybe I should think of my "possible" cavities as such.

On another note, I hope you all out there are doing well and are doing things that make you happy. There is no other group I can honestly say that I feel for the most then those with any type of anxieties/depression. I guess I think of it like those people that treat the Susan Coleman cancer stuff; we are survivors of an ongoing disease.

Ever been in one of those moods where you can just listen to the same song over and over again until your tired? Well I'm in one of those moods. I've been listening to one song after another but first playing it at least 4 times before moving on.

I'm laying in bed right now at my grandparent's home house-sitting for them while they are enjoying a vacation. My daughter, Amaris, is in the same room as I am playing on my phone while I stare at my laptop. Funny little girl! She was very good today and I'm grateful for that.

Today was a good day but busy in itself. I'mabitoverwhelmed by my microeconomics course that I cannot think of something more that I dislike then that right now. For some reason I do not get the concepts and I'm having to learn it all on my own since it's an online course. I want to do excellent so I'll just hope for the that and try to make it happen.

Funny thing is that I worry about school more then I worry about my job. As much as I hate interacting with people I've been interviewing people for a few positions in my area and have an interview coming up myself. I'm a bit anxious about the interview but figured for now that I would rather care more about school (that I like) then my job that I'm not too fond of.

I guess keeping busy helps but to what degree that it gives a person anxieties. I guess I'll just pretend that I didn't say that and carry on. Well for one thing though is that I seem to be saving money since I'm busy versus being bored and spending it.