Anxiety Self Help

.x.Interview With The Vampire.x.Garden State.x.A Beautiful Mind.x.Crazy/Beautiful.x.Girl Interrupted.x.Dirty Dancing.x.Save The Last Dance.x.Dead Poets Society.x.Donnie Darko.x.Fight Club.x.A Home At The End Of The World.x.Pieces Of April.x.Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.x.The Truman Show.x.The Skeleton Key.x.The Godfather(all 3).x.The Crow.x.What's Eating Gilbert Grape.x.Idlewild.x.Party Monster.x.White Oleander.x.

Almost everything but I really love reggae, and Counting Crows is probably my favorite band ever. Cold is an amazing band, Alanis, Blue October, Incubus is right up there with Counting Crows, Blindside, Smashing Pumpkins, The Deftones are a band that the world should listen to...there is a lot more, like I said almost everything that is just what is coming to mind right now.

The Keys to the Kingdom, Running with Scissors, Party Monster, Beneath a Marble Sky, Homeless Bird, Vittorio the Vampire, Tale of the Body Thief, Mary Bloody Mary, The Body of Christopher Creed, What Happened to Lani Garver....

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Okay so I guess now that I've had this for oh..years, it would be okay to fill this about me part out right?


My name is Jana.
I'm 18 years old.
I "suffer" from severe anxiety and depression.
I'm so used to it by now though that it's just normal there is no suffering to it.
Well maybe, I guess the suffering stems from the lack of understanding when it comes to the opposite sex. Now and then they seem to think I'm crazy, I used to believe that too until one day I just decided I was tired of feeling like sh*t everyday. Beating myself up for chemical imbalances in my brain that I had nothing to do with.I know who I am now and yes I still get attacks, some that leave me in the corner crying for an hour and some that leave me setting all of our pictures on fire, but they always pass.

This song is completely me with of course the exception of the chorus because so far I've met no one brave enough to stay haha.

Title: Everything
Artist: Alanis Morissette

I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withold like it's going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby
And you've never met anyone
As negative as I am sometimes

I am the wisest woman you've ever met
I'm the kindest soul with whom you've connected
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen
And you've never met anyone
As positive as I am sometimes

You see everything
You see every part
You see all my light
And you love my dark
You dig everything
Of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here

I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive agressiveness can be devistating
I'm terrified and mistrusting
And you've never met anyone who's closed down as I am sometimes

You see everything
You see every part
You see all my light
And you love my dark
You dig everything
Of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here

What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go

I am the funniest woman that you've ever known
I am the dullest woman that you've ever known
I am the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known
And you've never met anyone as everything as I am sometimes

You see everything
You see every part
You see all my light
And you love my dark
You dig everything
Of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here
And you're still here
And you're still here

.x.Reading.x.Photography.x.Taking Naps.x.Sitting Outside Watching My Life Pass Me By.x.Watching Movies.x.My Cats, Tom & Kitty.x.My Friends.x.

There is so much and I just don't want to type it all out.

Photography, being with friends, soccer when I feel up to it ( lately that's never )