Sitting on the sidelines
Out of the loop
Watching you
Everyone so loud
Voices carrying in the wind
Listening to bits and pieces
I crave your conversation
To be a part of it
If only to stand nearby
To be noticed
I wait and wonder
Why am I here
Will I ever fit in
Will I find my niche
I am stuck inside my head
Thoughts run rampant
Chaos enclosed
Ruining any chance of sleep
lying in bed
Staring at my wall
I close my eyes
and see nothing at all
September 2006