Anxiety

Yeh I would not say I am suicidal but I have given up. I have no hopes or goals for the future...strange that in giving up I feel free. I feel OK.

My best friend passed away 2 yrs ago from alcoholism, he was 40 yrs old. My sister at the time said to me, "I hope you learn from that", like she thought I would give up alcohol overnight? Considering that I had just lost my best friend (oh and the fact that I found him, after he had been dead laying in his bed for 4 days) she thinks my first impulse will be to give up drinking?... LOL

Nup in a way I have given up...like my friend a slow suicide thru drinking, but I do not feel guilty about it. I still contribute in small ways to life....

If I met a young person who felt suicidal, of course I would try and help them find a way out of those feelings, but I never judge those who feel suicidal or who have suicided.

I hope people here can express their feelings enough...to not have to do the deed.

Love to you ...whoever reads this. :)

Cat - bless you........if I found my friend dead, I think I would START drinking if I wasn't already.  I'm sooooo sorry you had to go through that.  I think a lot of times we feel like we've given up just cause we're so tired of fighting.  Maybe its just acceptance that this is what it is and exhaustion sets in and we just sit back and put down the ax.  I hope you hang in there, find something that arouses passion in you again and know you are worth living.......you never know who you touch out there w/o ever knowing it.  Keep sharing with us......

^ That is such a lovely reply, thankyou for the kind words. Yes it does get tiring after 30 yrs of fighting, and somehow, as I said in giving up I have found a freedom that is kind of nice.

Everyone on the planet goes through suffering, that is simply life. I think we all react differently to our trials and I think that is OK. Judging how people react to their suffering is a cruel thing to do, and I have seen many people judge those who have suicided. I guess it is to be expected because those left behind are hurt and angry...but still, it makes me shudder when I hear these judgements.

Thanx again cindy, your comments brightened my day.