This past month I've done two things I didn't think I'd ever do again. I went back on prescribed antidepressants & anti-anxiety med and I called and made an appt to talk to someone.
My past didn't bring good things with either of the above things, so it's kinda a big deal that I'm "going there again." Desperation does that to me, I guess. Esp the anxiety that plagues me everyday.
I am nervous about doing this again. I've been on the meds for over a week now. I go to see an internist on Monday to talk. I have no experience with an internist, but i was told she was free and that she was leaving at the end of Aug., but at least it's a start (and free--my ins will only pay 50% for me to see someone and only psychiatrists in the town I live...since I'm already medicated, apparently they don't want to see me). I guess it's better than nothing. It'll either do nothing for me or I'll really like this girl, only to have her leave me next month. I figured that I wouldn't be on the Ativan for a long time since it's addictive so I better find another handle for coping with the anxiety. Depression has plagued me for around 20 years as well.
Wish me luck. If anyone has seen an internist, tell me what it was like. thanks.
