Anxiety
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Cocky
DATE: Sep 30 2008, 12:38 pm / MOOD: Anxious
I haven't been on here for a bit...mainly because I've been taking the little pills for over a month now, daily, and the anxiety had pretty much disappeared. I guess I got too cocky about it because it's been back this week... My pdoc has me keeping a mood journal for the bipolar and I also track anxiety. I've had it daily for the past few weeks. I'm grateful it's not severe, but I don't like having it even in the mild to moderate range. It sucks, as you all know. It's depressing to think it's possibly gone, only to discover that it's not. I don't see my doc again until next week. Maybe he'll up my dosage. I don't know.
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I was right about my diagnosis
DATE: Aug 21 2008, 11:13 pm / MOOD: Other
i met with the psychiatrist yesterday and he confirmed what I suspected from my own research--I am biopolar 2. So now he is weaning me off the antidepressant and I am starting a mood stabilizer. Interestingly, he doesn't think my anxiety is a separate issue. He thinks my moods are causing my anxiety. View Entry | Leave A Comment
updates
DATE: Aug 20 2008, 6:42 pm / MOOD: High
For anyone that is following my "story," i did see the social worker twice. Both times he jipped me my full 50 mins that I paid for and both times he really didn't get to know ME as much as he quoted Dr. David Burns' The Feeling Good Handbook. It is a good book, as I've owned it for many years, but I'm not paying money to have someone basically quote the book to me when I can read it to myself again for free! So I dumped him. where I'm left now I don't know, as my insurance only covered him and psychiatrists for paying half. Well, I am seeing the psychiatrist tomorrow so we'll see what happenes. Maybe he can pull some strings with my ins. so I can see someone in his "group" or maybe not. I am on my upward swing right now where I feel like I don't need any help at all. But I know it's an illusion and I'll hit the other side soon. I think I'm bipolar 2 and I'm curious if the psych. will come to the same conclusion. I think I definitely need something that is "safe" to take everyday for anxiety and a mood stabilizer.... View Entry | Leave A Comment
Do social workers help?
DATE: Aug 06 2008, 7:31 am / MOOD: Other
I'm going to be seeing a licensed social worker to talk about my depression and anxiety problems. Has anyone had a good experience with a social worker helping them control anxiety? Please share your stories. View Entry | Leave A Comment
Do certain songs make you anxious?
DATE: Aug 06 2008, 7:30 am / MOOD: Don\'t know
Does anyone else find that certain songs seem to trigger anxiousness for no real reason? I've noticed that lately with some particular music and it's even music that I normally like. View Entry | Leave A Comment
Med change
DATE: Jul 23 2008, 7:02 pm / MOOD: Other
i was waking up every couple of hours, every night, for 3 wks. I think it was the Cymbalta doing it to me, so I asked doc to switch. I am now on Effexor. I hope it helps with the sleep, anxiety, and depression. Sigh. View Entry | Leave A Comment
therapy (need advice)
DATE: Jul 23 2008, 6:57 pm / MOOD: Don\'t know
today was day 2 of the therapy. Actually, I guess technically maybe day 1 since the last time was just doing intake info. I thought my intern was going to be around until the end of August, but today she tells me she is only going to be around for two more weeks. That means we have two more appointments before she ditches me off to someone else that I'll have to pay for. It's probably for the best. I don't know how helpful she is. Sure, she's a good listener and she knows how to hand out printouts of anxiety and sleep issues, but other than that...hmm, not so much. She thinks I should have my doc sign off on prescribing me meds and refer me to their psychiatrist that way he'll see me. (I was told that he wouldn't see me because I was already being medicated). Then I can get tested again (haven't been since teenage yrs) and get an official diagnosis, which might change the meds I'm on. Insurance will pay 50% of his bills. However, the intern says that he only sees the patients for 20 mins at a time (except for the initial evaluation, which is an hour), and doesn't sound like he'd be someone that I could talk to, really, just get diagnoses and meds from. I was doing some more searching and discovered that my insurance will pay 50% of the bills for a licensed social worker the next town over (15 mins away). It is a man though, whom I've never met. But I'm sure he's cheaper than the psychiatrist. I may call and see. I'm not sure what to do at this point. I should keep talking to someone, but I'm not sure if I should go the psychiatrist route or the social worker route. I really need advice. Are social workers really helpful? View Entry | Leave A Comment
Talking it out
DATE: Jul 11 2008, 9:18 am / MOOD: Other
This past month I've done two things I didn't think I'd ever do again. I went back on prescribed antidepressants & anti-anxiety med and I called and made an appt to talk to someone. My past didn't bring good things with either of the above things, so it's kinda a big deal that I'm "going there again." Desperation does that to me, I guess. Esp the anxiety that plagues me everyday. I am nervous about doing this again. I've been on the meds for over a week now. I go to see an internist on Monday to talk. I have no experience with an internist, but i was told she was free and that she was leaving at the end of Aug., but at least it's a start (and free--my ins will only pay 50% for me to see someone and only psychiatrists in the town I live...since I'm already medicated, apparently they don't want to see me). I guess it's better than nothing. It'll either do nothing for me or I'll really like this girl, only to have her leave me next month. I figured that I wouldn't be on the Ativan for a long time since it's addictive so I better find another handle for coping with the anxiety. Depression has plagued me for around 20 years as well. Wish me luck. If anyone has seen an internist, tell me what it was like. thanks. View Entry | Leave A Comment
No Rhyme or Reason for It
DATE: Jul 08 2008, 9:39 am / MOOD: Anxious
I've officially been on Cymbalta and Ativan for a week now. I must say that everytime I find myself taking the Ativans, I start to cry. I just can't believe my anxiety has gotten to this point. The things that set me off are completely crazy. Like this morning, my boss had me meet with a client, last minute, and I was ACTUALLY FINE (anxiety wise) through that. I was ok all morning, but then at lunch time, I was going to walk to the bank (a very short walk) to drop something off, and I felt so anxious about it. I didn't want people to see me (stupid cuz I work in a law office so people see me all day) and I was upset about going into a differnet building of the bank that I'd never been in before. So I downed those two little pills and off I went. It's so crazy that i'm like this now. I used to go for a walk every day on my lunch break and never stressed out about it. Nothing traumatic ever happened to me on my walks or anything like that. I get anxiety alot in the mornings, thinking about everything that needs to be done and worrying about bills getting paid on time...I hate having to interact with people even though I do this all day long at my job...my every day events have become a struggle for me suddenly. I understand that Ativan is addictive. What happens to me when the dr decides I can't be on it anymore? Will the Cymbalta help with the anxiety (along with the depression)? Will I have to go through therapy to conquer this monster? View Entry | Leave A Comment
anxious morning
DATE: Jul 03 2008, 6:04 am / MOOD: Anxious
Is it really possible to feel worse? I know it is way, way too soon to feel any different on the meds. I've been down this road many times--you give it 4 to 6 weeks. My anxiety was out of the roof before I even left my house this morning. Took the Ativan and it didn't kill it completely like I thought it would. Maybe I should take 2 instead 1....it says I can, but I'm so reluctant to overdo it. So I was late for work, which is nothing new, but my boss was here, so I told him sorry and that I would stay in for lunch to make up for it. He said it's ok. I don't know if he meant it's ok, don't worry about it, but to be on the safe side, I will stay in anyway. The public doesn't need to deal with me at lunch time anyway! Mornings are hard with getting myself and daughter around for the day. I try not to flip out in front of her, so like always, I internalize my anxiety so nobody can see it. Hubby didn't know I was in such a poor state with anxiety and depression until I told him. I just fake it so well around people, putting on the appearance of being normal. Now I wonder if I've made myself worse by doing that. View Entry | Leave A Comment
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