Anxiety Self Help

Yesterday during my lunch break at work I went to the liquor store and bought 2 bottles of wine. I'm not much of a drinker, I have a bad liver and my dad is an alcoholic. But when I got home from for say 4ish by 4:30 I was trashed. I drank 3/4 of the bottle and took my beds. My boyfriend got hom at 5:30 and found me asleep in my closet. I don't like to loose control like that. But I just wanted to forget the day. Nothing out of the ordinary happened honestly. I just wanted it to be over and start new.

I ordered the Anxiety and Phobia Workbook on Amazon. It should arrive today. My therapist has been using it with me and I find it helpful. I see her today. I'm kind of afraid she is going to but me back in the hospital. So chances are I am going to end up lying to her, which I know is unhealthy.

So far this morning is fine. I'm trying to stay upbeat but work is my major stresser.

Wish me luck!