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Nov 16 2009, 11:02 pm / Other

I really am. Boo Hoo...life's not fair, it sucks...get over it! Lol, I'm not being quite that harsh on myself. I'm more, leaning on a positive note. I'm trying to take control back after a weekend of internet obsession weirdness. Well more like half a week. I missed two classes, I have been going to work. I was just trying ot escape into a fantasy where I felt important. It's hard to feel that way in this reality. But it depends on how you go about living your life. I'm capable of things, so I'm going back to doing those things. I'm going to try to do them because I enjoy them and stop seeking attention in other realms. To just create my own happy existance. I'm going to try. Wish me luck. But I don't think I'll need it.



My Comments

From: jack21
Nov 17 2009, 11:21 am

It is really easy to lose yourself in some alternate reality where you feel important. I mean just look at the success of all these roll playing alternate universe games which I guess you're referring to.  The feeling of being a "nobody" when you were once so important is a terrible feeling BUT it is bullsh*t. Why? Because whether you're the CEO of Boeing or a hobo on the street you are a human being and no one human being is any more important or any "better" than another. It is a social construct reinforced by the heirarchical nature of the 3 religions which dominate our world. People call one another "losers" or "losers at life". What the hell does that mean? Who wins? We all die and we all get put back into the earth as posseionless as the day we were born. We can't take our money, our cars, our ranks with us. We die and its over. No one wins or loses. Everyone just lives and dies. I thought that I was a big shot in the army. I came home and I was a "nobody", less than a "nobody". I was f@cked in the head - so I was a "loser". All of it is a load of garbage. You are important b/c you are a human being as perfect and as imperfect as any other human being on this planet.



 jack21