Nov 08 2009, 10:46 pm / Other
As I don't think about the alternative. I try to stay positive. When my brain is telling me that is pointless, its going nowhere and is nothing. I try to tell myself nothing in life is limitless. At least in terms of ambition.
Its hard to eliminate words like pathetic from my self-vocabulary. But hey, its a beautiful world out there and I've got to start living and stop feeling so hopeless and afraid. Everything about my anxiety is a shield. (Insert a duh here if you'd like because I know most people know that already.) It's a protection shield. It's supposed to keep you safe from all the big, bad ugly out there. When in reality, its creating the big, bad ugly in here.
One thought at time. Accepting that things are okay. That I don't have to drill every thought to death and then pick it up and batter it some more. I'm just letting it be. It makes me feel a little lighter and certainly makes for less to worry about. Less on my plate. That's what I'm striving for.
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