Anxiety Self Help

Feb 15 2010, 12:06 pm

Hey dreamer thanx for responding i feel like if only i got the help sooner i would probably be somewhere else in life.therapy is ok.hope ur doing fine take care

Dec 13 2009, 11:29 pm

Lots of talk about a remake of footloose for the cinema.. I think it would be a disaster. It is already great

Dec 12 2009, 6:33 pm

yea. another Footloose fan

Nov 05 2009, 10:10 pm

Hey can i get a copy of that book?LOL Cain't wait to read it.

Nov 01 2009, 10:22 am

Yeah,I thought the cross design was pretty cool,too. and you should have seen the actual yellow of that forest.The pics only partially captured it.:)

Oct 31 2009, 10:22 pm

Thank you for the sweet picture comments...and yes, my cat Skeeter does have some really big eyes, lol. I hope you're having a great Halloween!!

Oct 31 2009, 4:27 pm

Hiya new friend! Hope you're feeling well, you've got some great photos up!! Take care and good to meet you - xx Lesley

Oct 31 2009, 12:53 am

You are so very welcomed!

Oct 31 2009, 12:50 am

U are welcome. Yes, I really am getting tired of the outside "put on a happy face." I used to be jealous at times, my friend would send me her dang christmas card every year with their family and all the places they traveled. Well, guess what? 10 years later, now they are bankrupt and almost divorced. My other friend would send her pic with her kids all dressed alike in their perfect outfits at Christmas, well her husband was having several affairs. When my life fell apart at 32, they did not understand it. Wanted me to go shopping, have lunch. I just was working on breathing and that was painful. My whole world bottomed out with a divorce, having to quit school two semesters before completing my RN, my son being diagnosed with anxiety and possible OCD and my husband deciding to believe it and telling me to get over it. I could not eat, sleep, or think. My friends actually got MAD at me. I lost my home, job, son's health and my marriage...yes, sure I will come over and F'in scrapbook...I could not look at family pictures and still to this day 13 years later, they make me cry. Now that their lives have fallen apart (10 YEARS LATER)they finally can talk with me. After pretty much being pissed that I isolated and did not want to socialize, no actually I wanted to die, but stayed alive for my son. Now one of their children tried to commit suicide and the phone rings for me or the other one admits to her husband have all these affairs. Yes, that is what I wanted...you guys to be real. They would always say they wanted the old me back. I would say, SO DO I, that does not help me! I had to bury her and grieve her to, now I have to start new and guilt is NOT in the picture for staying alive!!! I still only get out of the house like once a week. Cuz now I see my son experience the pain that I did even at a younger age, most of his life. I cannot begin to tell you his hardships and the phone not ringing, birthdays with few to no guests or no calls, dad dropping out of his life...stick a stake in my heart. It is one thing for me to suffer this but now to see my son, my joy, my truest form of love, he is so wonderful, kind and loving suffer too? Man, I am sorry I don't have prom stories, and sporting event stories, or all the other crap that they do in high school. He survived and that was amazing. I do have a supportive family though. He is all alone, just me, really. His dad got remarried had three kids, and kind of just wrote him off...won't accept him for who he is...oh it kills me. Well, thanks for asking to be friends. Tonight, I cried feeling I had no REAL friends, except my sister who lives in FL and I am in WI. I have my dog Leo...he is my best friend. I tell him that everynight, I love him so. Thanks for making me feel better too!!!

Sep 08 2009, 11:45 pm

Thank you for the comment, I'm sure things will get better. I hope you're doing good :)