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Jun 02 2011, 12:50 pm / Mellow
so ummm well i dunno ive been feeling pretty sh*tty lately so i havent wanted to come on here to whine and at the time i just felt god awful and didnt even want to leave my bed and whenever i did it was just to get more booze, basically i decided to stop talking the one person i actually talk to about things she means the world to me but we didnt speak for a while and i just thought f@ck it she's busy its about time i move on and get on with my life, but the thought of that made me so unbelievably depressed i havent felt that way in a long time i was just i dunno i cant describe it i felt like someone just died....but we sorted things out....but it pisses me of that i can get that way over one person....i even explained to her that i kept on trying to tell myself that i dont need anyone and i was just trying to think as negatively about her as i could and that was too easy just because i wanted it to be i just wanted to justify my stupidity i guess....anywho its my birthday soon well on saturday to be exact and my lil brother bought me a guitar and gave it to me early because him and my other youngest brother are going to there aunts this weekend so he wont be around on my birthday....and i was shocked he's only 11 and he bought me a guitar i almost cried he basically said well you know i love you loads and you mean alot to me and i know you wanted a new guitar.....this guitar is going to be with me forever its not an amazing £20000000 guitar or an amazing make but i dont care to me its the greatest guitar ever made and i told him that even when i get more pricey guitars ill still pick that guitar up more tis my pride and joy its the nicest most thoughtfull thing anyones ever done for me.
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