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Aug 02 2008, 9:21 pm / Happy
hi, i had a date on sunday and have been with him ever since. we went to the beach last sunday evening, had a drink...and talked for hours, he then asked if i would be his girlfriend then gave me the warmest kiss...we havent been apart since, apart for work. its 5 am here and hes at work until 6 then hes taking me to work, then in the afternoon we are going for a walk around some beautiful coastline ect. he keeps telling me that i am the one for him, that im the best hes ever had and that im the one. he says that hes never been in love before he met me! hes really nice to mje, no one has been this nice for years......of course im not stupid and the first sign of anything bad id end it....but everyone loves him....he really is lovely....i can be totally myself with him....my daughters in spain but shes already met him anyway, he goes around with some of the people that i do.......hes sooo intelligent too....thats really attractive to me... my job isnt going well, i cant hack it...ive lost my nerve....the other day for the first time in over 10 years a patient scared me and now im filled with anxiety when i go in.it wouldnt matter what ward i worked on now,,,ive lost it. im dreading going in today and am trying to be positive but im gonna work off my shifts for the month then leave.....its sad but i cant live with the anxiety...im gonna go to my doctors and get some beta blockers for the fear! so, on the one hand ive met a wonderfull man...and on the other hand my jiob is going down the pan...aaaarrrgggghhhh!
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