Ride Out The Wave...
dcstranger Male
29 years old
Ontario, California
United States

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Job: Artist
Smoke: Yes
Drink: Sometimes
Religion: Other
Orientation: Straight
Dating status: N/A
MEMBER SINCE: Dec 09 2009, 5:02 am
STAR SIGN: Capricorn
LAST LOGIN: Sep 22 2014, 11:44 am

Sep 18 2014, 1:35 am
May 16 2013, 3:05 pm
Feb 09 2013, 2:44 am
Feb 08 2013, 2:41 am
Dec 27 2012, 3:21 pm

I have been struggling with Agoraphobia,Depression,Social Anxiety and Panic Attacks for a little over 8 years.


Just a simple soul...
With each reach and each tear,
struggling to escape this hole,
Lost for some time, broken.
The crushing weight of pain,
endless pain.
I'm gentle around aggressive forces,
Didn't have much of a chance,
God said look up...
and the Devil said get him.
Anxiety, The Invisible battle...
Words fail to express this isolation,
My own worst enemy.
Stuck on repeat...
Each day brings the cage,
Forces the Tears...
Causes the Panic,
The Anger,
The suffering.
I want to give up...
Defiant and stubborn I fight.

I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity.
Edgar Allen Poe..

Judgmental People.
Loud noises.
Hot Weather.
Attention Seekers.
This big brother bullsh*t that's going on in our government...
Prejudice people.
Denial of observation.
Misplaced aggression.

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From: Ange85
Sep 15 2014, 11:50 am
I'm sorry to hear that and hope it gets better for you. I know how that goes. Yes, it's good to keep busy and keep your mind off of anxiety and difficult when theres not much to do. I have just been home and doing the homemaker thing lol. I'm bored often also ;) How was your weekend?


From: Ange85
Sep 02 2014, 1:02 pm
Thank you and you do the same :-) How have things been with you?


From: Kirah
Jul 31 2014, 1:00 pm
Thank you! I'm having a decent week I guess. This week went by really fast. Thank God!!

I hope you are doing well.


From: delane
Jul 31 2014, 9:40 am
Glad to hear from ya, hun! Seems like a roller coaster ride, here....of sorts, anyway. But, could always be worse...i know.
Hang in there, hun!! ***hugs***


From: delane
Jul 21 2014, 4:03 pm
Don't sweat it, hun. i'm sure you'll figure it out--what'll work best for yourself. ****hugs****
i'm hangin in there, as best i can, i reckon. Still trying to figure out myself, as well as my marriage (for what that's worth), and just exist, for now....alone, still. i have begun therapy, so that's a plus, as well as the other medical-steps i've been trying to get completed, for the last couple of years, now...so, its not all bad...just gotta take things as they come and steps...lol
Feel free to holla, anytime--keep me posted on how you're doing!!! t/c, for now, my friend.