Anxiety

some time ago i wrote a poem called the circle it was my attempt to take the subject of child abuse and tair away all the psych-social treatment terms and sshow it for what it was horror depoilment pollution and destruction of a young ones soul and a sentence to carry it for life,up till now i have not posted it due to its rather bleak subject matter but recently someone told me that my writing might actually help someone who haqs gone thru the same thing in that possibility i now post it but be forewarned it can be "triggery" so proceed with caution and to anyone who feeels like they are all alone believe me you are not.

when johnny was ten out on the old farm

his father took him took him to harm

just like his father had done it to him

with whippings and rape when full of gin

the old grandfather took him

  out to the old shed 

whipped him and chained him

and took him to bed

the crys in the night

they all went unheard

and the victims never spoke

not even a word

abuse is a circle

it goes round and round

forever repeating till 

its brought to the ground

unless someone stops it

it gos on evermore

tonight in his room 

johnny locks up the door

inside his head is a screaming red hell

he sees all the pictures

he smells all the smells

the taste of blue steel is cold on his tongue

as he relives the horror

of when he was young

he never recovered

no matter how hard he tryed

and now in this second

the circle has died

My Comments From: hope Sep 03 2008, 6:49 pm Soul murder is what it is and this is so poignant and touching and desperately sad. You've nailed it, again Joe and I think of all the trauma so many generations have gone through to come back to keep the cycle alive. But their is more help today...........at least in my idealist state of mind I want to believe we can save all the "little Johnnys" and little Janeys. Heartwrenching-that's all I can say. Thank you and much love & peace to you. (Wiping tears) From: cindy0607 Sep 03 2008, 6:06 pm wow....deep and dark....but unfortunately all too familiar.......you were right when you said something to the effect that it's total destruction to the soul.......robbed of childhood.....shame.....guilt......and then later rage that rears it's ugly head in all different kinds of ways, ie. anxiety, depression, disassociation, multiple personalities, .....been accused of all the above, maybe even left out a few......