Anxiety Self Help

I waited all night again for nothing. To tell someone I miss them and get nothing but dead silence. No concern. They get to go home and not think another thing about it and I get left here alone againg feeling so smal, like nothing. I have to get thru the night and then get myself up and go to work and put on a happy face and be the happy energetic person everyone thinks I am. I dont even know who that person is anymore. This is just to much