hey CS, i know how you feel, and understand your anger. I know this is a clich'e but you need to work out what you want and what you enjoy.(like a few others have said you have the life to live)
i know the feeling what is the point and ive been told that it the little things that you set up for in the future and that future thing could be an hour from now. My counselor ask me what i look forward to just something that i know will probably be a good time. I named some, Halloween withmy little cousins, family christmas in michigan, going back to maine for the summer though that seems far away right now i just look to halloween. I will live in that moment or at least try to. easier said than done I know. I also asked the question on what is the point of having good times if they are taken away from and what the point to that. I havent been able to answer it, maybe there isnt one but if i could be happy for a couple hours sometimes that can be the point. I still learning and I still have an I dont care mind but hey at least i'll be able to say i was happy once again even if im not now.
