Anxiety

NOBODY! Yeah, Jo, my sister, planned this little get together, bought food to make these killer snackins, i even helped cook and i'm just the BoxDinnerQueen! Nobody but Heather,our dear friend,showed. so, we had a nice quiet evening and it was just me, heather, jo, and mike, my bro-in-law. We watched "law abiding citizen" with the ever-so HAWT Gerard Butler. Wait...just thinking about him...i do believe i'm gettin' the vapors..lol now i'm home and its quiet and i've left a note for mom to see if she would like to spend some time with her daughter tomorrow. yeah...uh...me.

today i acquired an extra $20 and slipped into Heather's cig pack so she could go get her foot cream. its so damn expensive and she just doesn't have the money for it. her feet are infected with staph and they're just getting better. i don't want them to get worse.

after that day i met Dante, things have changed a bit. i'm so much calmer when i feel like i should be going apesh*t. i saved half my breakfast from denny's the other day, then got a free McDouble at MickyD's, so I gave it all to a man on the offramp off the freeway. he was holding a sign that said, "sometimes we all need just a little help".   I actually said "God Bless" and i don't believe in the Christian God. But i know my God will bless and keep him. that's all i need to know.

i really wanted to see Deanna and Jason tonight, but their car was leaking oil and D just put a thousand bucks into fixing it, now this. So jason was real pissy and everyone was screaming and yelling in the background *we were on the phone* and it just wasn't happening. i was even willing to go pick them up. i miss them and pray for them every night. they are great people and i want them to be happy.

the fingers on my right hand are freezing cold. lol

isis is in my lap, purring away and waiting for us to go up to the treehouse and resume our evening. Shoooot....its only 11:40pm and i don't even think about laying down til 3am. Fuggedaboudit...

oh, one more thang...Albertson's was having a sale on diet Dr. Pepper *tastes like the real thing!* for only 12 cents a 2ltr!! AND Rain Gatorade for a buck! finally, cuz i'm sooooo sick of just water all the time. i know its good for me and i really do dig water, but sometimes a girl needs flava...or carbonation..or both. ya know?

nigh-nights...and thanks for listening again.