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my mom said she sorry for all the abuse!!
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By:
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dead
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Mood:
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Lonely
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Date:
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Sep 01, 2010
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None
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finally i got to talk to my mom about what she did to me when I was a kid my parents both abused me physically,emotionally,verbally. I had tried to tell her about it before but whenever I tried to I'd get mad and start yelling even once she told me that I'm lying and she never did any of those but it was different this time she accepted it and said she's so sorry for that ,it made me feel a lil bit better I never got to talk to my jackass father though as a matter of fact he never talked to me even for 5 minutes in my whole life ,he used to beat the crap outta me when I was a kid anyways maybe my mom apologized cuz she knows I'm moving to another country soon I was gonna just disappear and forget about them but ever since she apologized I feel you know guilty she still tries to manipulate me and I know she ain't proud of me cuz I'm not what she expected me to be but she haven't given up on her dreams gahh am I responsible for her happiness?? why doesn't she accept me just the way I am?? she still don't understand me she never tried to, did I diappoint her?? I have every right to live my life the way I want it?? my dad don't give a sh*t at all but maybe my mom is the one who have to change?? but she's too old I don't expect her to ,ughhh I don't know what to do :(
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