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back to drug addiction
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By:
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beanman80
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Mood:
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Disappointed
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Date:
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Dec 14, 2006
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Music:
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None
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Over the past few weeks everything has unfolded all at once....I can't explain it or its extreme personal circumstances but I just could not cope with reality anymore. I felt like either jumping off a bridge or doing drugs to get away from it all....I guess I chose drugs..I knew i should have got help but I just f@cked myself with my own ignorance of me convincing myself everthing was all right when it's not. I told myself I would never go back to drugs but now they are controlling me more everyday ......If there is a god please help you f@cking asshole...how could you make my life and so many others miserable if your out there....I'm just mad at my own weakness...I'm on the verge of not having a job if I keep up the way I'm going and loosing everything I have ...WTF..I need to get some serious help and I think I am..I can't go on living like this if this is what you call living..well this is my f@cked up blog beanz out 
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