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Twilight
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By:
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GodIsLove
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Other
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Mar 10, 2010
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None
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I have wanted to write to you for some time. But I thought it better to pray first. I prayed at home, at work, and in front of the Altar for wisdom from God. -Wisdom of what to say. - What to say to my beautiful friends here in our Tribe. God's word is so precious. so deserving of my best reverence and respect. So what I say to you I say with the most humble and loving heart I can have.
n Fear, anxiety, depression, low self esteem used to define who I was. - Like a dog on a leash, I was lead around by it. IT decided what I would do, Where I would go, When I would speak, How I would feel about myself, what I deserved. - It punished me daily with guilt. "I was a rotten person and I deserve this." "I must have done something wrong" "Nobody could ever like someone like me" - "No one wants to be around me' "I don't want to bring everyone else down? etc
n It was a cage and I was thrown in it and the keys thrown away. - At least that is how I saw it.
n My friends, God lifted me out of that pit. He broke open that cage. He lifted me out of the soup of self punishment. He got into my very heart and soul and showed me that I was worth something. I am telling you the absolute truth. He showed me what it was that was waring against me. He identified the enemy and gave me the weapons to fight back.
n God is real. I am as sure of it as the nose on my face. God met me on my own turf. He came to where I was.
n There is always hope, no matter who you are. There is a dark presence in this world that does not want you to see Gods presence. It wants to keep you in chains blaming yourself, being afraid, keeping you in fear and torment. It wants you to blame yourself. It wants to keep the light of God from shining through the darkness. - I was in that darkness and now I am in His light and I can see clearly. - I still have attacks - God did not take them away. But in it all I have a tremendous peace and real Joy. He gave it to me. I did nothing to make it happen. And He holds me when my fear overtakes my faith.He catches me when I am sinking.
n I wanted to tell you about my hope. Maybe it will help you in some way.
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