Trying something new
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By:
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esurbb
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Mood:
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Tired
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Date:
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Apr 01, 2012
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Music:
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None
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I am trying everyway possilble to find was to deal with my social phobia and my extreme anxiety. One day in February I was feeling like I had no control over anything and I sat in my dining room floor and proceded to cut my wrist. I have never done this before. I don't know why I did it. I think it was because I needed someone to know I wasn't ok. My boyfriend took me to the hospital and then they admitted me to inpatient therapy. It was awful. Like a nightmare. All those scary movies about insane asylums summed up where I was. There they diagnosed me as bipolar and put me on enough meds to sedate an elephant.
So here I am a month later diagnosed with social phobia, agoraphobia, and anxiety. None of with have anything to do with being bipolar. All of these things have taken over my life completely. No one knows how to approach me or talk to me. My sister is constantly mad at me because I am too afraid to go out in public. My father recently stated that he wanted his daughter back. And all my mother does is yell at me about how it's all her fault.
I just wish I knew how it got to this point.
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