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Stressed

LonleyTeen
By: LonleyTeen
Mood: Frustrated
Date: Jan 30, 2013
Music: None


Not eatten in two days, and i really dont want too!

Food has become a massive issue with me at the moment, i dont know why, im trying to starve myself. i think its my day of crying out for help. i can never just say to somebody 'i need help' i do harmful things , like when i used to drink alot, and i ended up in hospital, and self harming, its just my way to try and get help. i wish i could just scream i need help. but even if i did, i have a feeling nobody would hear me.

im now signed onto job seekers, its a benifit, and im forced to look for work or else i dont get any money. and iv only been on it, like 4days and its already killing me, so far they have made me be out everyday, it has tookme out of the comfort of my home, and its really stressing me out. im finding it really hard, i feel like a 13 year old in a adults world. i know im not 13. but sometimes i feel like i am, i was pushed to grow up far to soon, and i am no way ready for this! i mean i dont want to worry about money, or about if they is food in the house. but i have too. i am so close to checking myself into hospital. but the only thing stopping me is my mum. she thinks im completely fine. and i dont want her to know im struggling, because i need to be strong for my mum. but i dont think i can be for much longer. my mum is ment to be the one who needs help. not me.



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From: TammyD1972
Jan 31 2013, 2:51 am
you sound like you are going through a lot and we all need help at times,

i dont think we were put on earth to have to struggle alone, period.

if you feel like you need to be inpatient, maybe that is the best thing,

starving yourself will have bad consequences,
asking for the help you need is much nicer on your body and soul
i promise

i hope you get some peace, really soon


TammyD1972


From: pluto
Jan 31 2013, 2:06 am
I been in your shoes and hell I'm still in your shoes
No you don't need to go hospital. Seeing a local therapists would truly better help for you. But you need to do is tell your mom about your struggles. My mom would say the same to me your just oh fine she would say to me. But the only reason she thought I was fine was cuz I wasn't telling her the whole truth about my stress and self harming. It was hard for me to tell my mom about my struggles and mistakes. I thought for sure she think of less me and I didn't to put added stress on her. But I'm gald I did tell her, because for one she help me greatly and she encourage me . I got thought my hardship because my mom was with me. And also it was just great relief to tell my mom cuz it was getting everything I had been dealing with off my chest. So your mom doesn't really think your fine cuz she doesn't know the whole truth tell her your mom. Gave her a chance she just might help you.

Oh I feel like 13 years old too everyday of my life. My dad tries to tell me your a grown person and yell at him I'm still a baby over the phone. But I learn that's okay cuz in your life you have to go at your own peace. So don't worry about being 13 as long as your making the right choices for yourself and moving forward in your life you are fine. Trust me life will speed up or force you to slow so you might as well go at your peace instead forcing yourself. Okay
It never to late to makes the changes you need in life. To better yourself
Talk your mom and tell me how it goes okay
Need to keep in mind after you tells your mom the truth or confess your struggles to her. If you need to give her time to progcess it okay. You had yourself spent weeks or days debating are you tell your mom or what you should tell her. My point is you gave herself time to come out to your mom so her time in return to take in whatever you tell her.

pluto


From: nicedd
Jan 30 2013, 11:35 pm
you can not be of any help to your mom if you are not well. you definately should maybe get some help I think checking into a hospital would be a great idea. Also then your mom will also realize how sick you are.good luck!

nicedd