Standing behind the anxiety
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By:
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omnicell
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Mood:
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Other
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Jan 25, 2013
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None
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Im standing behind the anxiety, Im not through it or on the other side of it. For the first time in a long time Im feeling the anxiety without the rooms to cover it up, or girls, or Dissociative problems.. This is an advancement for me. I have to trust God and take him with me. Im on the verge of changing my home life, cleaning everything, cloths management for a real first time.. furniture change. This is about much more then furniture. ITs about a change form the old me to the new. Im stuck in the middle. It might take a few years to adapt to the outside again. I can say the anxiety levels are so high I cant move; Im use to this.. Im not use to it in these circumstances.. I have to trust that God can make and keep me busy... So its, me and the anxiety... I dont know where Im going.. Ive spent most of my life nuts.. The other half hiding in different locations. Things have opened up for me now a bit. Ive started lifting weights again a few months ago. ITs going exceptionally well. Im not fighting it, I look forward to it... I will pray about the anxiety and the connections I need to feel safe...
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