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Should I be doing this alone??

By:	lauranbl
Mood:	Sad
Date:	Apr 15, 2012
Music:	Smashing Pumpkins - Try, Try, Try

Past few days ive been feeling really disconnected...from myself and my boyfriend. I have been having a rough time with anxiety and panic attacks, mainly at nights with me ending up sleeping on the couch in the living room. I love my boyfriend more than anything in the world but recently ive been feeling guilty for putting him through all this. I feel like ive been punished, karma coming back on me in the form of anxiety. When we first met I was always anxious but somehow never managed to let it control me...but now it is and I feel that he misses the girl I use to be and it makes me sad and frustrated. I think now the GAD is making me depressed and really making me think about every single aspect of my life. Im worried incase I start to try and push my boyfriend out my life on purpose because he could met someone that doesnt have any issues. Is it fight or flight that im having with my boyfriend???!! im scared because he is the most important thing in my life and I love him soo much.

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From: MoonbeamMama
Apr 16 2012, 12:23 pm Oh honey, I have worried about the same thing with my husband. He has been soooo supportive of me thru this time (I got anxiety because of a really bad year and herniating my esophagus too boot- The muscle spasms in my throat is what started my panic attacks because I thought I was choking.), and my issues have gotten so bad I'm having to re-learn a lot of things...basically anything I have to do on my own sometimes. Driving, walking to pick up the kids from school...the shopping. He's held my hand (not always literally) thru all of this and I am eternally grateful to him for not holding it against me- but there is always that niggling feeling in the back of my mind that says- I have to work harder NOW- I have to be better NOW- I have to be able to do these things on my own or he WILL leave me---even if rational me knows it's not true. Just try and let him know how you're doing on the bad days- but when you're having a good day let him know that too, and maybe ask to try to do something fun that you guys used to do together on a good day. Or do something special for him- to show him that you've been thinking of him. Just keep the lines of communication open is the main thing.

From: hannahbanana
Apr 16 2012, 4:58 am maybe talk it out with him and let him know how ur feeling, so at least you'll know upfront? i dont really have any other advice but maybe try to relax aswell , i hipe u work things out good luck x

From: Jonny1978
Apr 16 2012, 3:06 am I'm in the same position, I'm scared my wife is going to leave me because I'm always craving reassurance, the more anxious I get the more I ask and so on. I think the best way to understand it is to know they love and support you and always keep that in the back of your mind xx

From: lauranbl
Apr 16 2012, 2:28 am Reading your responses has cheered me up and put a smile on my face. Im going to start to defeat this problem, i want to be that girl he fell in love with a year ago :)

From: FLORIDA
Apr 16 2012, 12:25 am Personally i think that if he was going to leave you he would of done it by now. Seems to me like he is willing to do what he can. He most likely does not fully understand anxiety but seems to me like he is doing his best to be there. People like us tend to do a lot of mind reading and we usually get it wrong. Has he ever said any thing to you about youre anxiety being too much for him?

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