Revisit to Anxiety Tribe
I've returned here today to find I hadn't been on for a long while. I wrote my last (and first) blog september 2008, and I gave it a read, and my profile too, and made me realise how unhappy i was back then. I've updated a couple things in my profile now, but needs updating some more probably.
Looking back, I'm certainly happier than before. I do have more confidence and hope about the future, but still suffer badly from anxiety. Although it affects everything I do, I still manage to get out for walks & things frequently, and get by ok. Although, I do avoid busy public places, and haven't entered a shop for some time...not realy ideal.
Last time here, I was unemployed and getting frequently moaned at my family members, but I've now been running my graphic design business for a couple years and some weeks go really well. It's been nice to be able to buy things for a change as I went a few years with no money. This, with family members being happy and supportive has made me happier I guess.
I started exercising, cycling, walking, jogging, lifting weights recently and this is really improving my determination, happiness and confidence. I recommend that to anyone who doesn't exercise.
I'm looking for a place to rent now, although not sure if my anxiety would let me do so. I'd probably rely on food shopping online until I could manage going out to a supermarket. I just really want my independance now. Would like a place by the coast and away from town centres, but maybe that's asking too much hehe.