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Not my day
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By:
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cloftis86
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Mood:
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Disappointed
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Date:
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May 22, 2012
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Music:
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None
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So I started a new med about 2 weeks ago. After a few days I could tell a difference. I was happier and more calm. Well last Wednesday they upped my dose. The past few days I have been anxious...just kinda existing through the day and counting down until bed time. Well today was finally the breaking point. I had a panic attack a few hours ago. It just took over and I spent awhile in my room crying. I am so upset because I was suppose to be going to my niece's graduation. But unfortunately it's one of those days. When will this end?? When will I get my life back? I was starting to get confident and I felt like I was getting someone. But now I feel like I've been thrown back. I just keep telling myself that I will have days like this on my road to getting better. But I can't help but to get mad and frustrated. I'm suppose to go to therapy tomorrow. I think I will cancel. I want someone who I feel like will help me. This one doesn't feel like the winner either. Her office is small and there are no windows. and I sit in a chair and she sits behind her big computer desk. I don't feel comfortable being in there. And to me, that's one of the important factors. I feel better talking to someone if I can relax. Ugh. I hope tomorrow is better :(
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