No one gets it - scared to die
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By:
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Princess445
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Mood:
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Anxious
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Date:
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Jan 21, 2013
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Music:
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None
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This terrifying feeling, no one understands. Especially my boyfriend. The concept of 'anxiety' is so difficult for someone to understand if they have never suffered from it. I often wonder if im the only person in the world who experiences this type of anxiety. Ill be sitting, relaxing , watching tv or laying in bed and suddenly one thought enters my mind and i cant stop it 'im going to die one day' and thats it my stomach is in knots and im picturing coffins and hospitals. The fact i cannot stop my eventual death terrifies me. I picture myself old and suffering, i picture my parents dying and feel really sad and i dare'nt tell anyone my thoughts, i dont want to scare them, especially mum as i know she suffers too but a different kind of anxiety. sometimes it effects me differently, busy shops or clubs frighten me or i think everyones looking at me. I feel like theres no way out and ill be frightend forever. its horrible.
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