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No one gets it - scared to die

Princess445
By: Princess445
Mood: Anxious
Date: Jan 21, 2013
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This terrifying feeling, no one understands. Especially my boyfriend. The concept of 'anxiety' is so difficult for someone to understand if they have never suffered from it.

I often wonder if im the only person in the world who experiences this type of anxiety.

Ill be sitting, relaxing , watching tv or laying in bed and suddenly one thought enters my mind and i cant stop it 'im going to die one day' and thats it my stomach is in knots and im picturing coffins and hospitals. The fact i cannot stop my eventual death terrifies me. I picture myself old and suffering, i picture my parents dying and feel really sad and i dare'nt tell anyone my thoughts, i dont want to scare them, especially mum as i know she suffers too but a different kind of anxiety.

sometimes it effects me differently, busy shops or clubs frighten me or i think everyones looking at me.

I feel like theres no way out and ill be frightend forever.

its horrible.






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Jan 24 2013, 10:21 pm
I know what it's like not wanting to tell people what you are thinking. I have epilepsy, and when the anxiety kicks in I am petrified that I am going to die. My anxiety comes out of nowhere sometimes. I totally understand that sometimes you're not even doing anything that would cause anxiety and it just shows up out of the blue. One of my fears is the fear of just up and going crazy. Sometimes I feel like there is no way out too. I get it, I really do. I always try to tell myself that the feelings are only temporary and I have to suffer and be scared as hell for a little while. I journal like crazy also, especially during my attacks. I don't know if that is at all helpful, but if there is any comfort in knowing you are not alone I hope it makes it a little easier to swallow.

Leelee77


Jan 23 2013, 5:20 am
Overwhelmed at the support thank you guys :)

Mazdalady - thank you, i think my boyfriend is just a really shy person so finds it hard to comfort me but i will ask him to google it. I just need to block these awful thoughts. everytime something goes wrong in my life they come back stronger.

Lauren - Thanks i will look at the blog when i next get a chance. Its been about 6 years but i can also remember thinking it as a child but not being strongly effected by it like i am now.

Stayingcalm - thank you for the support its all very helpful

thanks all xxx

Princess445


Jan 22 2013, 5:32 pm
What your feeling sounds exactly how I feel, though I'm slowly become more content with it :) Is this a new feeling for you or has it been going on for a while?
Please read this book or just have a look on the blog, it really helped me. http://anxietynomore.co.uk/blog/

Lauren24


Jan 22 2013, 11:58 am
Hello, i just wanted to reassure you, that your kind of anxiety, is one of the most commonest there is, you also sound as though you might have a bit of social anxiety too hun, this aswell is very common, so your definately not alone in your anxiety.
As for your boyfriend, can you not ask him to google your condition and educate himself on it, he might understand it a bit better then and give you some support in the real world.
Hun basically you are just allowing to let the intrusive/negative thoughts run riot in your head, you need to break that cycle, by replacing them with positive thoughts, if you can keep this up everyday, your brain will learn to accept that way of thinking and recondition itself to think that way.
As for the death thoughts, yes that is unfortunately the life cycle, that at some point we must all die, but your only still very young, with your whole life ahead of you, dont waste it on thinking about such things, you could have another 70 years ahead of you yet,in which case, get out there and live and enjoy your life hun,70 years is just to long to be sat thinking about death and wasting your precious life away,all the best and tc.

mazda_lady


Jan 22 2013, 10:12 am
Lauren24 - its so reassuring to know someone else is feeling this too, i really want to live my life to the full if we only get one but this anxiety is holding me back. Thank you Lauren

Johnny45 - Thank you for the breathing advice

Dontlikethis - i hope not

Princess445


Jan 22 2013, 5:52 am
I have the exact same anxiety about dying, but if you learn to accept it then it will pass.. in time. I'm still not over it, but i'm learning to live with it. It's a slow process but it will happen I promise you. You need to get out of the cycle of getting yourself worked up over something that you have no control over. (which for me was the scary part, having no control over it) but in time things will change. :)

Lauren24


Jan 21 2013, 2:48 pm
Hi Princess445,

I know you are really frightened when you experience these feelings and yes, most people do not understand what they are since they may never have had them. When these scary thoughts enter your mind, you need to tell yourself, these feelings will pass. It can't hurt me. And, if possible, do deep breathing exercises. Inhale thru your nose, hold for 1-2 seconds, then exhale slowly thru your mouth. It does work.

Feel better!

John

Johnny45


Jan 21 2013, 2:44 pm
You won't be frightened forever!

Dontlikethis