I feel so lonely.
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By:
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Firefly
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Mood:
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Sad
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Date:
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Dec 13, 2012
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Music:
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None
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It looks like I'll be heading home tomorrow or Sunday. I have a job interview that I'm only mildly excited for. My mood has been low since I returned to my parents' house and it just keeps dipping lower.
I feel lonely, like no one cares about me. I've had bronchitis for two weeks and when I kept coughing, I asked my brother, "Am I bothering you?" And he hestiated a bit before saying, "Yeah, right now you are". He was trying to play a game and I guess I was coughing too loudly; he didn't say it to be mean but it stung so I got up and left. He came over to tell me he was finished a short while later but I just stayed in my room, I was upset.
My ex and I are fighting. We were working things out between us but I got so mad that I told him it was over. I haven't heard from him in hours. For all I know, he's out with some other girl already.
I'm somewhat interested in someone but some other girl is digging her claws in. He said they were just friends but I know their behavior with one another is beyond platonic and she wishes he were more. I feel like I'm going to go home and get ditched so I don't have my hopes up.
It feels like returning home just to continue being a footnote in life. But hopefully my mood will pick up once I'm back into a regular routine.
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