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First Day Of Hell Tomorrow
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By:
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SoullessBVBLover
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Mood:
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Anxious
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Date:
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Aug 19, 2012
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Music:
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Silent Scream- Cinema Bizarre
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So....again a long time since my last update but things have been crazy, there was that funeral thing and I'll tell you what happened there in another blog entry
To much to explain at the moment.
So, tomorrow is the first day back to school, and I've been freaking out all day. I've taken so many pills to calm down I feel so numb.
I have everything ready just so I don't screw up, or atleast not try not to screw up. All these thoughts, and emotions, and memories popping back into my head and i'm scared to go back.
Anyway, now I have to get all my pills i'd take while at school so I have to go to the nurses office three times a day, and I just know people are gonna think i'm a freak for it.
My purging got REALLY bad today, just to make sure I wouldn't be to disgusting for tomorrow, I also cut the word 'loser' into my thigh today....I just don't know.
If I survive the first day of school, I'll let you know how it went...but I feel like shooting myself now just to avoid that horrible place....
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