Feeling Lonely
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By:
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katie4961
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Mood:
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Lonely
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Date:
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Feb 18, 2013
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Music:
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None
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I really don't know how I'm going to cope with all of this anymore. I feel like everything is completely out of my control and something horrible is going to happen. Over the last few days I've been incredibly anxious about an upcoming test and I feel like no matter what I do I'll be a failure. Nothing relaxes me. Throughout my life I've had a lot of traumatic events that have made me feel completely worthless and my logic/reason can't pull me out of those past feelings. If I had a third person perspective and I heard the things coming out of my mouth it would sound completely ridiculous, but I just can't stop the worry. I am constantly criticizing myself and I base my worth off of others percepction of me. If one embarassing thing happens to me it repeats over and over in my head as if my life depended on it. I don't want to live a life taking anxiety medication like doctors say I should, but I am too frightened to go to therapy. An incredible sense of doom is hovering over me all of the time.
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