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Don't want to be me anymore

By:	VividDreamer
Mood:	Tired
Date:	May 16, 2012
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Today I had my first break down in a long time. Anxiety overtook me. I bawled my eyes crying and kept telling my boyfriend that he didn't want to be with me really even though this is not the truth. I feel so down today and I know that everyday can't be good but I truely believed the lexapro had fixed things now I see it will never go away even though it's more manageable it'll always be part of me and I hate it so much. I just feel so sad and sick. I'm sick of dealing with it. I want to feel okay an not constantly worrying. I want to treat my boyfriend the way he deserves and I want to feel strong. I feel really unmotivated to do anything at all. I just want to lie down all day and do nothing. If it wasn't for my boyfriend I wouldn't have got up at all. I just need to be somebody else.

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From: VividDreamer
May 20 2012, 3:09 pm Thanks. I have thought about therapy but I'm afraid of going. It makes me so anxious talking to a stranger.

From: hannahbanana
May 17 2012, 7:52 am just take it easy and tell urself ull take things one step at a time. oh , and try some mediatation yokeys. oh and its okay to be u aswell, everyone ahs diff reactions to things and we all have our own personalities, im worried im overreacting bout placemtn larks, but im trying notto think about it tilli ask someone else for their opinion. well i did and they said i wasnt overreacting but i suspect they may be lying. lol. anyway whati mean is that its ok to be u and have a breakdwn, its alot of pressure carrying it around i cnat tell ya :/ but yeah dont get frustrated bout ur bf or worrying and stuff, ull get there in the end and if it doesnt work out, theres always another way :) always ^_^ xx

From: bashatheone
May 17 2012, 6:25 am Be Strong I strongly recommend you to read Dr. Claire Weeks's - Hope and Help for your Nerves - i feel I am now Cured after reading this book...

From: VividDreamer
May 16 2012, 8:38 pm Thanks guys. Just a really down in the dumps sorta day. Tomorrow is a new day though, I'll try be more positive. A good nights sleep might help. :) Thanks for the positivity. You are both really helpful xoxox

From: triggered
May 16 2012, 7:23 pm Hang in there. There are bumps in the road but you said it yourself, things are more manageable. That is a pretty positive statement... embrace it! Hoping you have many more streaks of 'manageable' days ahead.

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