Acting on Boredom
|
|
|
By:
|
spirit88
|
|
Mood:
|
Devious
|
|
Date:
|
Jan 27, 2013
|
|
Music:
|
Marcy Playground--Sex and Candy. Because I'm obsessed with the 90s.
|
|
|
I've felt better than what I have in months. I'm back sleeping in my own room again, thank God. But of course, this morning my pastor had to bring up how all the little girls in our church are all getting married :p When I should have been paying attention and being holy all I could think about was how I wanted to flip him the bird. My mouth pulled hard into a tight, broad smile it always manages to spring to whenever I'm nervous or tense and want to hide it. I looked like the dang Joker. I actually have plans for the future now. I'm going to try to apply for a subing job at the elementry school in town and hopefully after working there long enough I'll be able to apply for a permenant position as an assistant teacher. :) Photography calls to me. It always has, yet I'm having one pain in the rear looking for the right dslr camera for me. I hate waiting to improve in this hobbie--I am an overacheiver, even though I was known to make fun of them back in my teenager years. I am eager to advance in my life and it's driving me crazy! Want to get married--can't find a man. Want to publish books---unrealistic and incredibly competitive field. Love capturing images and the beauty of life--can't find a dang camera. This is unacceptable! Grrr..... Yeah, I know. I'm so scary. Not. Antsy. That's what I am. I hate feeling this way because this is when I get self-destruction...or just get myself in trouble. RIght now I'm rambling on here because it's the only thing I can do before I pull my hairs from their follicles. Somedays....I just want to kick a puppy.
| 
