Happiness#2
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By:
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m217
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Mood:
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Happy
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Date:
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Oct 06, 2008
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Music:
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None
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Happy thoughts and how to stay positive?
Well it's really impossible to sustain total happiness,more so with my depression and anxiety.I'm bound to lapse into one or the other at some point.This whole thing in my mind is like a terrific storm at sea and at the moment i've managed to come up and gasp some air inbetween waves.It does feel like elation to breathe the free air,although i've been around enough to know it may not last.Who knows how long it will last and should i waste time thinking such thoughts or should i just enjoy every single second of peace,like it were the greatest gift ever bestowed upon someone!
Is that an exaggeration of the situation,well for me no it's the truth ,and i'm privileged that i can come up for air and experience some peace.I may even say it's hard work to pull my mind into clarity of thought,but i just see it as my life,and it is something i have to do because i want to live life and be happy.
The last few days have been really good and memorable and yet today anxiety has ravaged me for the last few hours.I'm not as worried about it as i used to be ,due to the simple fact that i have managed to kick anxiety to the kerb,even if it were just for a while.To have that experience has given me hope ,and shown that anxiety can be challenged and i can win.Today i struggle ,but these struggles will get less frequent as i become stronger and anxiety is on the backfoot.
So long may this train of thought continue to rule and one day i'll emerge the man i want to be,FREE!!!!!
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