Anxiety

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You wouldnt believe how many times ive now wrote a bit and then thought...nah... DELETE.
Well this time im goin for it.. Errrm.... Im a 27 year old chap from the Midlands UK. For the past 2 years now ive been suffering from some kind of anxiety. It all started when i was home alone one night and everythin jusst went weird. I felt hot, i felt sick, i felt like i was bein suffocated, i felt like i was gaspin for breathe. it was awful. i panicked and went outside for some air but that didnt help me, i honestly felt like i was completely off my face.
Anyway i managed to get myself into bed, and lay there sweatin, shakin an totally freaked out for a couple of hours just tryin to get a grip of what had just happened to me.
Well... from that day, i havnt been the same, TOUCH WOOD.... i havnt had a proper panic attack for about a year but the anxiety just wont go away. Ive got to the stage now where i just dont put myself in situations which will provoke anxiety. I dont work at the moment and havnt for a while because this really brings on the anxiety, although deep down i probably know that this would help take my mind off it. I no this is far from ideal but i havnt got any answers as to how to rid this crazy lifestyle. I joined this site cuz i find it helps to share experiences an copin techniques with others. I guess the main reason for joinin was to convince myself that Im not alone in this and people need help, just as much as i do.
Im a nice guy with alot to give, i just wish i could get myself in the position to give everything.
I definately want to get sorted and i think slowly i am gettin on the right path, but its such a slow process and i usually find i'll have a good couple of days an think...Yeah. this is it... but then it all comes back an im back to square one.

One day somethin will click, an i'll get through the barrier that holds me back, i'll never stop tryin.

Sorry for wafflin on... got a bit carried away there, i'd really like to hear from anyone who wants to chat, if i can help in anyway i will.

Thanks for readin... Keep Smilin!!

Everythin i used to do, but cant seem to push myself to do anymore
My Children
Football
Music
My Car
Internet
EBAY
Birmingham City FC
Chinese Food

sittin in doin sod all, day in day out
not workin
feelin ill all the time
gordon brown an his crappy budget

havnt really got a hobby, i go through fads of likin all different stuff. then get bored with it