Anxiety Self Help

DATE: May 23 2012, 1:41 am / MOOD: Sad

I'm trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I know anxiety, but this depression thing is new to me. I lost my baby girl (Hershey my kitty I had for over 13 years) over a year ago, but it is killing me now. I have two English Bulldogs now and the oldest one is not doing well...it's killing me to possibly lose another one. I know it doesn't make sense to everyone, buthopefully the folks that can't seem to have babies....our pets are ourkids!

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DATE: Apr 17 2012, 12:53 am / MOOD: Disappointed

I'm sorry to everyone here....I haven't been a friend....and for that I am sorry. I thought that maybe I could deal with things and be normal, but I was mistaken. I just realized how many times I said "I"....that's my problem (other than the obvious...lol)

I just want to be normal....for once....Everyone keeps telling me how selfish I am because I know when I can't deal with situations, but all they do is turn it around and sayI'm being selfish. Maybe I am being selfish, but it is for there benefit too...

It's humiliating to feel this way. I've worked since I was 16 years old and now I'm in my 30s and I cant hold a job. I could have an interview in the morning and I am scared to leave the house. Why??????????

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DATE: Oct 21 2011, 12:28 am / MOOD: Other

I've always gave everyone the benefit of the doubt (because you never know what they are dealing with in there lives). I've always taken up for everyone that weren't there to speak for themselves (RIP Tom French)and those who can't.) I truly don't know how to deal with my own family. My mom & my sis are determined to make me hurt and I don't know why... How can anyone quit speaking to their mama??? Any help on this is much appreciated.

Bamagirl76

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DATE: Oct 21 2011, 12:13 am / MOOD: Frustrated

Ok...so I had a great day at work...moving up quickly, so I wanted to call my family and let them know... My mom's response was "You need to fixyour marriage problem"...and my sis told me "I make $40 an hour"....really? I'm not trying to brag at all...I'm just happy...thought you might be happy for me...Are they wanting me to go away???? geeze! I believe it's getting time to cut the ropes on these relationships... what do y'all think?

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DATE: Oct 15 2011, 11:42 pm / MOOD: Fearful

O.K. so when I first started having anxiety attacks bad it happened in my sleep. Now, I'm apparently having them in my sleep again. I'm on Paxil, but do you guys think I need to go toa doctor?

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DATE: Oct 03 2011, 11:05 pm / MOOD: Thankful

Ok...so, y'all are the only people that will understand this, so here it goes.

I've thought I would die in a car wreck ever since I wasold enough to talk(my mom's twin sis died in a car wreck when she was pregnant with me, so it has always felt like that would be my death) Today, thankfully it didn't happen, but it so could've if I hadn't already played this out in my mind so many times. I know it sounds stupid, but seeing a huge dump truck (loaded) coming at me with no where to go was crazy! God must have sent an angel to me or something...

He (the driver) either wasn't paying attention or his brakes went out...I saw him coming and moved up about 6 inches and he managed to jump the curb and somehow stopped before going into traffic. Talk about a wake up call! Didn't need caffiene this morning...lol

The reason I am posting this is because you never know when you won't be able to tell your people how important they are to you. And to all the folks here that have been here for me, I want everyone to know how much I appreciate it! Thanks for being my friends! Please know that I will do anything I can for y'all when you need it!

Love you guys!

Andrea "Bama girl"

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DATE: Sep 28 2011, 11:40 pm / MOOD: Disappointed

Who is actually monitoring this site? If I read some of the things (that reminded me of when I was young) that people say (reply) when new folks post things I would be dead right now. It truly reminds me of being in high school all over again! In case anyone doesn't understand, this is a horrible thing to deal with...It is possible to overcome it, but please remember how horrible it was before you (and everyone else) realized what it was. I feel like I'm watching people being bullied and that is not right.

If you don't want me here then tell me to leave...but to the folks being jerks....you either have never had a panic attack or you have no soul. I'll never forget my next door neighbor shooting himself in the head because he didn't "fit in". Grow up and learn to deal with this issue.

Sorrry everyone, sweet dreams....just struck a nerve.

Bama Girl! ROLL TIDE!

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DATE: Aug 24 2011, 11:12 pm / MOOD: Anxious

Trying to get a mortgage on a house while my husband is in Miami working...Been sick since he left....not sure if it's anxiety or a virus....Sorry, sick as hell and I'm sorry if I was in the wrong. Ever had a headache for 2 weeks straight for no reason? That's where I am at...and I am dealing with a pregnant puppy and a pissed off bullldog along with everything else...I'm sorry, please forgive me....Andrea

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DATE: Aug 21 2011, 5:23 pm / MOOD: Excited

I'm trying to get my mind off of my anxiety, so does anyone want to talk about college football? I'm so excited!!!!

ROLL TIDE!!!

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DATE: Jul 30 2011, 12:40 am / MOOD: Disappointed

Just wanted everyone to know that I am alive...just very tired... After my husband's supposable suicide attempt he almost died...blood pressure of 80/60....the doctor is an idiot and sent him home....I had to take off work to drive him to the doctor the day after to have 2 IV's of sodium water....they gave him meds that he should not have (ambian, cholonopan) and he is taking it like they prescribe....I came home today to my boy English Bulldog on the porch locked out of the house (and they can't be in the heat or they will die) and Ilive in ALABAMA!!! His excuse for this was, he was too slow! wtf? he's 70 in dog years!

Anyway, enough venting...gotta find a house to rent that allows 2 bulldogs and me...we are getting kicked out...Gotta love life sometime!

Sweet dreams,

Andrea

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