Anxiety

DATE: Aug 23 2008, 8:13 am / MOOD: Bored

just trying to 'unwrap' some thoughts that i've been holding on to for the past few months. but not going to say it in a straightforward manner cos my other blog has been discovered by my mother. she said it was "accidental".

so i'm really frustrated with work. i believe that everyone hates me or something. and i feel like they're talking about me when i'm not around. i'm especially frustrated with my colleague - lex. geez, he's known as 'the grumbler' cos he complains about lotsa things but when the boss is around he says things are fine.

for the first time in my life, i think i'm in love. but it's not going as smooth as i'd thought it would be. i'm just kind of confused now. i wonder if this man is for me? i love him to death, and just saying that alone gives me a weird feeling. why do i love him so? he has my heart. and sometimes it can hurt, too. i swear. my gosh. how am i to deal with such misery? love is not s'posed to feel this way, or should it? i'm no expert in this field. i don't think i've ever felt this way before. and i can't believe how i'm not afraid to open up to him. if it were other guys, i would be more reserved. i just feel so at ease with him.

i love the feeling of being with him cos the world just disappears. i wish i could be with him 24/7. i need him but can't show it cos i don't want to come across as needy. i want to cling to him but don't want to come off as clingy. i just... love him to death. you really do have my heart, jer. i love you. love you so much.

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DATE: Oct 12 2007, 7:20 am / MOOD: Anxious

Eck, the embed codes didn't work... here's a link instead:

CLICK HERE

or, just copy and paste this link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lAvef7CpVk8

 

"Believe in Dreams":

I know, the days will come and go,
But baby I'll grow old, but I will die.

For now, is it worth it to be sad,
if it's harder to be glad to be alive?
For the trouble I have caused
I wonder,
Where do I belong?
Is it here?

Believe in dreams you love so much,
Let the passion of your hearts make them real
And tell all the ones you love,
Anything and everything you feel.

I laugh about the past
Secretly,
Wish we could go back,
And save the child...

As I look around this room,
See the worried eyes I know
It's time I cannot buy
Was this worth the time to rise?
Was this worth the time to rise?

Believe in dreams
I believe in dreams
I believe in dreams
I believe in you

Believe in dreams you love so much,
Let the passion of your hearts make them real

And tell all the ones you love,
Anything and everything you feel
Believe in dreams
Believe dreams

 

Self note: Loved both the movie(Where the Heart Is) and song hence the video.

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