Anxiety

Rounders(one of my favs),Old school, 28 days later, American History X, Lost Boys, Blow, fight Club, wild things, Alien, super troopers,Interview with the Vampire, signs, pulp fiction, reservoir dogs, Goodfellas,L.A Confidential,Constatine,jaws,Public enemy, Angels with dirty faces ( I love james cagney),Saving private ryan, The usual suspects,shawshank redemption,dead poets society, Kung fu hustle,Indiana Jones ,I lovve scary movies, little miss sunshile, child of men, the departed

I love all types of music Tool, Sublime,Deftones,Anti-Flag, Perfect circle, alice in chains,slayer,Snot, dead poetic,mogwai,Dropkick Murphys,Arctic Monkeys,Frou frou
sneaker pimps Sirur Ros,
cake,Lily Allen, Blues/jazz, i totally dig it, john lee Hooker, duke ellington,etta james im all over the place when it comes to music. someone is trying to get me into Vevelt Underground now

The short history of everything, In cold Blood, The Desecent

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Ah I haven't been on here so long. Which was a good thing. For a while there I had my life undercontrol.Isnt that an amazing the feeling, control? Now my fu*cking anxiety is running me over like a train. So I got re- diagnosed today 12-11-08 with anxiety no sh*t and panic disorder with major OCD. Not the kind of OCD where I have rituals. The kind where I have obsessive thoughts, I'm constantly thinking im going to die or that's something bad going to happen, heart attack throat closing you name it. I look pretty normal on the outside but my brain sure is F*ucked up. It doesn't help that I work in the medical field, nursing sort feeds my fears the morei know the worse it can be. I don't know really what to say about my self I take klonopin which have a high tolerance to. You could give me 2 mg and I'll still have an attack. I don't like depressions med's they made me go off the rocker about 3 years ago. They did more harm then good. If anyone has something like me drop me a line I'll be on here a lot now. I need to people to relate to, it time take a visit back to anxiety tribe. Ihave alot panic/anxiey at night catch me on myspace or online hiashley00 aim you MUST TELL ME that you are from this site.
or www.myspace.com/ashleymalec

Science, beer, friends, laughing,I like watching people but not in a weird creppy way, anxiety,love,Health, deep thinkers and simple ones. late nights fun times with matt and my firends.

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reading abotu everything and anything I can, going out being social, having fun when i can, working, just being a bum, nursing/lnp/cna