Anxiety

Apr 11 2008, 5:13 am

Hi.. I read your previous blog and now this one. Breaking up with someone you have trusted and given so much of yourself to is hard. Like everyone else who commented i have had similar but someone better and kinder walked into my life latter and i thank God for her. Pleaswe do not cut yourself , keep writting little bits here and if necesary smask a plate or somthing on the floor but do not hurt yourself pleaseee.

Apr 11 2008, 5:09 am

I hope your day gets better.  It's really good that you were able to express your emotions.  Maybe you feel safe enough with your therapist to experience anger.  You deserve the support and care of a good therapist, your friends, and your family.  You don't have to go through this alone.

I know your bf sent you a very different message by not accepting you.  But he was wrong.  He gave up on a chance of getting to a deeper level of intimacy, because he couldn't handle the challenge.  This happens with a lot of people, it's not because you're a cutter.  Mostly likely he wasn't mature enough to handle a real relationship, which contains challenges and triumphs.  It is not about you!  People without cutting and anxiety experience the same things, it just hurts more for us, I think.  :-(

But you'll be stronger for getting through it.

And anger is good.  Here's hoping you hurt more chairs than skin!  

 

Take care of yourself!

Oh, I don't know if this helps, but when I was having daily trouble with urges to cut and/or break stuff, I bought a punching bag.  It really helped me.  Plus, it's good exercise and my boxing form has improved.  ;-)

 

*hugs*