will this ever end???
acusick71 Female
45 years old
Hopkinsville, Kentucky
United States

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Smoke: Yes
Drink: No
Religion: Not Religious
Orientation: Straight
Dating status: Married
MEMBER SINCE: Nov 25 2012, 12:33 am
LAST LOGIN: Mar 16 2013, 10:58 pm

the notebook

70's 80's rock

don't read Have only read on book in my adulthood

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Depression Support , Anxiety/panic attacks/ fear , Winter 2012

I am 41 yrs old a mother of 6 but only 3 still young enough to live at home, I am happily married now for almost 17 years but with hubby for 20 he is my rock and i feel without him i could not survive. and have been diagnosed with PTSD depression anxiety and panic. I am terribly afraid of dying and every time i feel a pain i want to go to E.R. I have run up so many bills and I need help to stop this. I also feel symptoms if someone tells me symptoms they are having I physically feel them.
So tired of living like this because I am NOT living. It has taken such a toll on me I don't want to go to work, or leave my home.

music, family, laying in dark room for hours

leaving home, crowds of people, being alone, loud music,ANXIETY AND PANIC, losing friends and people i care about, fear of death, and fear of losing husband because of my disorder

used to write poetry and have had some published but have lost the ability to write anymore, just cant make any sense when i try.
would love to be able to read but young ens wont leave me alone enough for me to do that and i really want to learn more on how to cope.

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Apr 22 2013, 6:54 am

From: timsa
Jan 24 2013, 8:19 pm
Thank you!


From: Mo
Dec 28 2012, 7:56 am
happy friday!


From: Mo
Dec 18 2012, 9:37 pm
Hey there; you have alot going on with being sick and all the hubby stuff much less trying to get thru just survival mode. It will pass. It actually got better for me tonight. If it can happen for can happen for anybody. JUST DOBTR GIVE UP THIS TOO SHALL PASss. just doest seem fast enough....cause it AINT #$$%^!
keep the faith. Mo


Dec 18 2012, 10:27 am
Hey how are you? I'm new to this site hoping to make friends that go through what I do